Re: Part 59a - At the sign of the Blue Rose
Cyan smiles at the dream Dorian puts forth. It sounds familiar, this dream, but much more natural. A pity most worlds with people in them have a solid grasp of the meaning of 'war'...but perhaps one might find somewhere within the Myriad Worlds where life had better sense?
'Publish some papers' - what a curious expression. She wonders at it, considers asking him the meaning.
But her smile fades at his next words, and she grows more solemn. "The straight path oft tramples over whatever stands in its way, Dorian, be it people, interests, or experiences. Consider this - should you wish to visit a city, would you wander straight there? Or would you, perhaps, choose to take a circuitous route, in order to enjoy the small towns and countryside along the way?" She taps the table. "Did your compass not bring you upon a meandering route through the Myriad Worlds? Did you not meet many unexpected things upon the way?"
But he has more to say, more to think upon, and she waits for him to speak. Finally he begins, and colour blooms in her cheeks as she listens, her sapphire eyes downcast as he speaks. Risk - there is always risk, she has found this out herself. Pain in the heart is slow to mend. Caution - this is her, she knows, and perhaps Dorian as well. And well it should be, for as he says, Cyan does not know her own heart. It is torn - wrenched by a not-so old lover, torn by Berd's betrayal, still sick from Harabonah's plague.
Were it anyone else, Cyan would consider fetching them a swift kick. Or she would have, two years before. Now...she knows a touch better. Sad songs are built upon foundations of experience, and while they may be hyperbole, they contain strong seeds of truth.
Then her harp, sparing her the need to reply. It is a welcome distraction, as she attempts to find some place for his words within her, some answer that will satisfy him. She examines her harp, slowly, carefully checking the tune. Perfect, of course, even after all of this time - the palanquet within the harp holds true its tone. Images graven with Power generally do - it is the others, the people of whom the images are created, that change.
He is...disturbed. Her lack of response? Her sudden shift toward the harp? Soemthing has been lost, and how Cyan wishes to kick herself. Inaction - the very thing against which Dorian has set himself. She glances up as Tahirah enters, gives the woman a quick nod. Then she turns back to Dorian, hugging the harp to her chest like a shield. "Dorian..." A small, helpless laugh. "I must seem a fool, leaving you alone to speak so. But I know so little." She closes her eyes. "This journey of which you speak - part of me leaps to begin. But another part..." She looks away. "So many things call to me, and while your voice is strong within them, I find myself buffeted to and fro." Too much metaphor - she lapses into her bardic ways, Cyan knows, to better avoid giving a straight answer. Enough. He deserves better than this.
The bard closes her eyes, sets the harp upon the floor. She reaches out, blind, and grasps Dorian's hand across the table. When her eyes snap open again, they are dark rubies. It is Cyan, but...more. Focused, in a way she has not been since her rebirth.
"Dorian," says the Warrior in Jet and Gold, "I do not know myself. You, all of you - yourself, Aaron, James, Jonnee - dragged me back to my life. And I find it like old clothing - familiar, yet ill-fitting. I search for a place for my being. Perhaps -" she squeezes his hand "- this path I will walk will parallel your own. Certainly it calls to me. I do not deny the pull."
Releasing his hand, Cyan leans back, closes her eyes. "But it is the journey, the meandering journey, that will show me where I am to be. I walked the straight path once before. It led nowhere. I have have always known the journey to be more important than the destination - why not so in matters of the heart? How else will I truly know what my heart desires, Dorian? And yourself, how would you know? This is what you were saying, I believe. And inaction..." A small, shy smile. "One cannot begin a journey without taking steps."
Then Trista's call washes over the bridging like a wave, and Cyan's eyes widen. She begins to stand, preperatory to rushing from the room. A pause, and she offers Dorian a quick look of apology. "I must go - it is a great distance, and time is of the essence." She concentrates, sends a call over the bridging.
If there is any of greater skill than myself...I come, Trista. But it will take me... *pause* Ah, I forget so much!
With a sailor's curse, Cyan snaps up the leather case from the table, withdrawing a single card from the deck within. All by feel - she knows these cards, estranged as they are from her spirit. And as she focuses, the bright eyes upon the card begin to glitter.
Berd!
One hand snatches up her pack, leaving her harp and its case behind. Then a rainbow shimmer dusts the air, and Cyan is gone.