Re: Arkadia/Vilis (0407 - E446845-6) Date: 229-1107 14:50
"It sounds horrible," Shui answers, her eyes closed. But that was, in truth, not the answer she sought. But then, her question was not clear, was it?
How to explain?
"I...do not seek reassurance," she says quietly, hesitantly. "Only understanding." The doctor rubs her forehead. No matter what she says, it will come out wrong. People assume, wrongly, that they are being judged with everything another says. With every word spoken.
Turning to Tylen, she opens her hands before her. "I seek understanding. I wish to comprehend. We are-" and the arc of her arm encompasses the Profit Margin "-good people. Yasmine is a good person, yet now she begins preparations of her weaponry without concern. Jago is a good person, yet we embark upon a mission to hunt, to kill, without question of the lives that may be lost. And yes, I am aware that by doing so we will prevent the loss of other lives, but..." She shakes her head. This isn't coming out correctly. "Corlan is a good person, and yet he views this as exciting diversion. You are a good person - I know this." Embarassing, to speak to someone directly concerning this, but it must be said, lest Tylen think she omits him from her list of 'good people'. But she cannot bring herself to continue in this vein - even to her own ears, she sounds condemning.
Even if that is not her point.
"I cannot know what everyone thinks, of course," Shui murmurs, turning away to lean against the table. "Conrad, I do not know well, nor you. And Saskia is likely concerned for her ship. Forgive me - I ask questions to which there are no easy answers." Turning back, she bows, carefully, in apology.
"I only seek answers to understand people." Her smile is wan. "Including myself."