Re: Reasons to beat whom ever is in charge of Medicaid rules
@ShadoPrism: What you have isn't AVMs is it? A young man I know has been badly ravaged by it, but is working to try to regain aspects of his life like mobility and such. If that, or something like it is what you've had to deal with I can imagine what it is like.
@V_V: It sounds like it is good that you have some people in your life, and probably good that you understand some of their constraints. I would make a guess that there are others out there whom would also have the capability to be good friends as well, and as the others here have said, online relationships are just as real as more local relationships are. They might have some aspects that might make them more difficult to build, but a relationship builds out of what you collectively put into it, so distance friends don't have to be distant. Be as open to others friendship as you can, healthfully of course, and find things you share with them so you can build that common bond, and don't let yourself convince yourself that your busy friends don't value you. Depression seems to love to convince you of negativity beyond reality. Make sure you make the time to keep in touch with them so that you can, when it works out, spend time renewing the bond you have with them.
[And I'm neither a psychologist nor counselor so take all of the above with a grain of salt, as I could have said something wrong. The on thing I can say with utmost accuracy, is that I for one am wishing you well, if that makes today any brighter.] :)