Re: Edition Wars? Really?
Church is pretty much "Would you like to join the congregation?" "Oh, you're not part of the faith? Um..."
The clinic hasn't caught up with the times, and is reduced to physical maladies. I am saving for a therapist but can only afford once every three months and they need to take medicare.
The state mental hospital is corrupt, that's another story though. Luckily I wasn't committed, I was just worried. Red lights went up for several reasons I won't go into. I did meet a nice man, Kevin, whom was ejected. I gave him a ride to a motel (two actually, the Royals play-offs made the motels greedy) and we talked. He had been robbed by some heroine addicts, and basically was having renal problems, strokes and oxygen deficiency. So basically when he had an episode they misdiagnosed him being dangerous. He was waiting nearly ten hours to get a taxi ride, and the secretary had failed to communicate to get him the his ride slip. So I gave him a ride, he wasn't escaped, or if he was, three cops had full view of him coming and going and me talking to him about giving him a ride. Anyway, I gave him a ride. He gave me some insider info, where other patients had been and liked, wished they could go again, what worked and didn't. It's expensive, but I don't dare take "free" help around here, law and medicine require investment or you lose more. Worse comes to worst, I can kite money, I'm just loath to.
I have a few places I've looked at. So I'm going to get therapy, it's a matter of money right now. If I get behind on the bills, which I have done, the doctor stops seeing me. All I can do is go to the emergency room since my therapy is neither legally mandated nor emergency stage. County mental health is a crap-shoot as I'd have to take taxi and might not be seen that day. No advance appointments. I have no one to take me (see elsewhere) no family that cares.
The point is that I am going to get therapy, yeah, I need help, I just have to find a way to get it. It's not from a lack of trying. I just don't know where to go. I'm going to keep trying though. That's all I can do. That's all I can do.