Re: Destiny- Kale's Bunk
[From Destiny: Dining Hall]
Kale stepped into his bunk, kicking the door shut behind him - he didn't give enough force to it however so it bumped against the frame and came to rest a few inches open. Kale didn't notice. He stood there in the middle of the small room - the cumulation of his entire life was here in this room. The few scarce belongings and the ship whose walls contained them was what he had to show for himself. That and a million and one regrets. He didn't normally let himself think about them but now looking around the room everything he owned reminded him of something he'd lost. Some stupid decision he'd made.
The brown duster hung over his chair reminded him of the war, of that night sitting up in the ship over Hera. Battle of Serenity. The ground troops had called for help. They'd needed back-up and Kale had been there, ready to move in before he'd been given the 'no-go'. He should have gone anyway - that thought haunted him everyday. It could have been different if he'd just followed his gut. Instead the 42nd had been massacred down there. Only two had survived, guy named Malcolm Reynolds and his second Zoe Alleyn. Now those were two folk he knew he could never face.
Kale's eyes moved from the brown coat to the top of the desk. Sitting a top it was an old photo from back when he'd first gotten Destiny. He, Charlie, and Rhaef stood outside of cargo bay squinting in the sunlight. Just one more regret. Rhaef had been with him from the beginning - he was probably the closest thing Kale really had to a good friend, even if their relationship was sometimes strained. He'd been his number one and he'd driven him off.
Probably Kale's greatest regret of all however lay folded at the bottom of his closet. He moved there now and retrieved the folded up bundle. Holding it carefully he set it on the desk and took a seat. Un-folding the thick fabric of Nate's old uniform he pulled out the small medal. He was supposed to have given both the uniform and the medal to Nate's family but he hadn't. He'd kept it all these years - and this was the first time he'd even looked at it. The medal had been awarded Nate just a few months before his death, it had been awarded to him for saving Kale's sorry ass while on Athens. Nate would never let him forget that, kept rubbing it in. Kale smiled, "Nate 'ol boy - ya still won't let me ferget ..." he muttered. He missed his old friend something fierce. The two had been closer then brothers. They'd done everything together - but it had been Kale's idea to join up with the Independents. Nate hadn't even wanted to. No one knew that. To his family and their friends he sounded just as enthusiastic as any of the young recruits but Kale would never forget the night before they'd shipped off ...
They'd been sitting up on the roof, up underneath the sparkling stars. They used to do that all the time, ever since they were little kids. It was like a secret getaway. He remembered the two of them snickering up there while Mrs. Collins came outside and hollered for them - never knowing that they were sitting right up out of sight. But that night they hadn't been children anymore. They had thought themselves men. They had the whole live before them and the world was theirs. The two of them had always been daring, and charismatic - everything they did always seemed to work out. Everyone loved them and now they were heading off to be war heroes.
Kale could still feel the soft breeze washing over him and hear the crickets chirping in the distance. He was laying on his back, the rough surface of the roof shingles making light imprints in his skin. Nate was sitting beside him idly prying one of the shingles loose with his fingers.
"Ya know Kale, I been thinkin' ... we're big fish here. We get away with murder, like when stole all them bottles from Mr. Marlin's liquor store -"
Kale laughed, "- an' then returned all the empty bottles. Poor 'ol drunk was convinced he musta drank 'em all himself."
Nate laughed as well but it was a bit half-hearted. He looked at Kale, "What I'm sayin' is that, we've been kinda lucky so far."
"Kinda lucky? We're the luckiest gorram sonabitch's there ever was." Kale wasn't picking up on Nate's serious tone.
"Tha's just it though, Kale. We've been lucky, but how long do ya think we can keep just bettin' on our luck an' hopin' it all just works itself out? Think 'bout it. We got a good thing here. We're goin' ta school an' everyone in town likes us - you got pretty lil' Claire wrapped 'round yer finger. I mean, we could really settle down here an' live. I don't think it ain't so bad bein' on Santo."
Kale sat up and looked at Nate, "What're you sayin'? What happened ta us goin' out an' livin' big? Explorin' the 'verse some, instead 'o just wastin' away here in this little town? Remember, we're gonna be war heroes, Nate. You an' me. They'll put our name in the history books. Doncha want that?"
Nate looked over at Kale, "Ya, ya - I want that but ... aw hell Kale, I dunno. Just havin' second thoughts, ya know? We're big fish in this here pond but there's an ocean out there. We don't know nothin' about it."
"That's half the fun 'o it. It'll be an adventure. Don' tell me yer gonna be a pussy on me." Kale said, knocking Nate on the shoulder, trying to joke with him, but Nate was serious. Kale's smile disappeared, "Ya really don' want ta go, do ya?" he said.
Nate looked at him, met his eyes and just looked at him. It felt like a really long time passed before they said anything, "I don' know ..."
"Well hell, Nate. I can't do this without ya. I mean, it's s'pose ta be you an' me. I can't - I can't go on off an' join the war an' just leave ya here. Ya gotta come too, Nate. It's what we've always talked 'bout."
Nate swallowed hard, "If ya really need me to go with ya, if it has ta be you an' me ... then I'll go. I'll go if ya ask me to."
"Go with me." Kale said and Nate nodded. Kale would give just about anything now to take back those three words.
"Alrigh' Kale, I'll go with ya. We'll go be war heroes an' give the Alliance hell." he grinned but it was forced, Kale didn't notice. He leaned back.
"By this time tomorrow we'll be out in the black. We'll actually be up there in the stars and finding our destiny."
Nate went back to prying the shingle loose - six months later he was dead. He was dead it was all Kale's fault. He couldn't face that, and he most certainly couldn't face Nate's family, least of all Dake. And yet he had to. Pretty soon Dake would be sittin' up in his dining hall, lookin' just like Nate, and reminding him of everything he wanted to forget.
Kale folded the uniform up and realized that his eyes were wet with unshed tears. He wiped his hand across them and stood up, knocking his chair over with a loud clang, "Ruttin' hell!"