Re: Beaumonde: The Underground
That night sleep came slowly to Rhaef. The dark walls of Curio’s lair seemed to be closing in. He could literally feel the weight of the entire ‘verse pressing against the walls. When he closed his eyes he could see the twinkling light of the black stretching on forever above him.
I gotta get out of here …
The stars suddenly seemed to zoom up to meet him, the room, Curio’s lair, the entire planet – gone in an instant. Swallowed by the black that had been waiting patiently for so long to take him. He was alone – all alone floating out in the middle of space. Just dark, cold, emptiness as far as the eye could see …
I gotta get out of here …
”You’d do well, I think, ta be worryin’ ‘bout someone other then yerself every once in a while …”
Kale’s voice. Rhaef turned his head but he saw nothing.
”I think it's better ta be a good man then a beast of a man."
Rhaef tried to move to where the voice was coming from but it was impossible, it was everywhere and yet nowhere all at once.
”Where are you! Kale!”
”It’s about being a good man. My crew comes first! … can’t really say the same fer you …”
A rushing sound filled Rhaef’s ears, as if the entire ‘verse was shifting around him, zooming past. And then it was gone. The darkness just winked out of existence. He wasn’t alone, he was standing in Kale’s bunk. Yes, of course … the darkness was held at bay for the moment.
"Be honest, Kale, ain't about being a gorram good man, it’s about being the hero. Well let me tell you something about heroes, they're the people who get other people killed." he could hear his own voice speaking quietly, intensely. Was that him?
"I'm damn proud ta be hero if the alternative is bein' whatever it is you'd call yerself. Carin' about nobody, trustin' nobody, shuttin' everyone out. And you say I'm throwin' my life away. How do you get off callin' what you've been doin' living."
"You want me gone, Kale? Say the word, I walk off the ship. It'll even be my choice.
It’ll even be my choice.
…my choice …
My choice.
The words seemed to echo around the small bunk. Everything was growing hazy and insubstantial. Rhaef could see through the walls, they seemed to flicker and fade. His hands grasped at them, but they were just barely solid. Rhaef could see the darkness of the ‘verse beyond them. The stars twinkling. So bright. The light caught his eye and held it. So bright, so warm. It filled his vision and he squinted his eyes and held his hand up to shield his face.
"Alright, you think you can catch from here?"
Charlie. Oh God, it was Charlie. Rhaef felt himself smiling. His face was shaded as Charlie moved to stand in front of the suns warm rays. Her figure was silhouetted against it – like a halo of light surrounding her.
"Ready when you are, Charlie."
"Games of trust, right?"
Rhaef watched her close her eyes. She threw both hands out to the side and leaned forward off the edge of the ship. There was no fear on her face as she fell. So calm, so trusting. Rhaef lifted his arms to catch her but suddenly he was moving away at an alarming rate. Farther and farther.
”Charlie!!!” he screamed out, she was still falling. She had opened her eyes and there was fear there now. He wasn’t there to catch her. He tried to fight against the impossible force pulling him further and further away, ”Charlie!!!”
”You wanted to protect her … except who is there protecting her now …” the professor’s voice filled his mind and he could feel tears coming to his cheeks. And still he fell backwards into the darkness.
”I’m sorry … “ he whispered quietly. He could still see that look of fear in her eyes, he could still hear the professors words in his head. He tried to shake them but he couldn’t, ”I’m sorry …” he said softly again, ”You hear that!!! I’M SORRY!!!!!” he screamed into the rushing darkness. He closed his eyes, ”Just give her back … please … give it all back …”
The rushing sound had stopped. Or rather, it had softened. It wasn’t rushing at all, but gently crashing. Like the soft sounds of the waves lapping at the beach. And then – yes, the cry of seagulls met his ears. His eyes fluttered open. He was on the beaches of Paquin – there was no way to mistake them. The sun was slowly rising over the ocean and the smell of salt reached his nose. The waves seemed to lull him.
And there, on the beach, all in white was Charlie. The wind picked up her simple cotton dress and cradled it around her small frame. Her hair was down, like it so rarely was aboard the ship and it too lazily sailed in the wind. She was lovely. She was as he always saw her through his eyes.
He took a step forward and the noise of his footstep crunching on the sand caused her to turn around. Her eyes sparkled with joy as she smiled at him. They both slowly walked towards each other. They didn’t touch; they just stood in each others presence. And then Charlie slowly tilted her head up to meet his eyes.
” S'not about how y'die, Rhaef. It’s more 'bout how ya live.”
And then the dream was gone …