Re: Furesh Scout: Crow ( Mission continued)
Elsbeth listened to what Balkiir recommended very intently. She watched him carefully as he spoke, trying to smile genially, but probably just ending up looking a little spaced out. Partly, she was absorbed in deeper thought. When Balkiir recommended that she try to center herself, Elsbeth glanced down at the ground, and a strong and abiding worry filled her for a moment. She did not try to hide the fact that she honestly feared that there was not enough personality in her to be able to anchor herself to ward off an attack - and while she couldn't really vocalize it. Deep down, she also could not deny the thought, deny the gnawing fear. Elsbeth bit her lower lip, and let out a slight, plaintive, sigh. "Know thyself." she muttered quietly, her brow furrowed, "Of course."
Still, when he recommended that she talk to T'risa, Elsbeth pursed her lips and then nodded slowly. "Okay," she acknowledged thoughtfully, "I will ask the Marshal about this. But, she appears to be a very busy woman. I can only hope that she will not think that it is too forward, and that she will time for me - I am only a lowly grunt." She noted off-hand, "The Marshal appears to be pushing herself very hard. She is displaying many signs of fatigue and possibly post-traumatic stress. Don't you agree, Friend Balkiir?"
Elsbeth nodded to the large blue man, a slightly sheepish smile on her face, as he read her surface thoughts regarding his parents. Then she quickly looked away, back out across the firing range and the targets (what were left of them) in the distance. Obviously, her thoughts where not that well guarded. At least, not with respect to Balkiir. And perhaps that was as it should have been. "I doubt that it will be any worse than the recruit hazing in Marine Boot." she noted, allowing only an iota of uncertainty creep into her voice. "And why would I want to strike one of your sisters, Friend Balkiir? I would be honored to be among them." Elsbeth glanced at Balkiir, a slightly crooked smile on her face, "I... I do not know what it is like to have a mother or a father or siblings at all, really. Most of the other children that I was brought up with, were either members of rival clutches and thus, were in direct competition for sponsorship and selection - that is how they set up the adolescent training - or my clutchmates, who were so close in genetic makeup that we thought incredibly similar ideas and could enact frighteningly well-synchronized actions. I suspect that both your family and I will take some getting used to each other on many different levels." Another sheepish smile with a pause, "I can only hope that you can bear with me." Elsbeth definitely projected a strong sense that she felt she was the more fortunate of the two of them with respect to their burgeoning relationship; that she felt deeply and genuinely lucky to have been 'chosen' by him.
She quirked her head quizzically, when he mentioned the Valkiir dress code, since she knew nothing about there inherent lack of modesty. Still, Elsbeth merely shrugged and said nothing - for her, there was little to be said. She knew that she could deal with what may come - at least, that was the theory. Really, she figured, how bad could it be?
As they were policing their brass, Elsbeth noted out of the corner of her eye that the others appeared to be regathering back in the ship. She motioned to her large blue companion with a slight tilt of her head. "Is there a briefing on the Crow that we should be aware of, Friend Balkiir? Perhaps we should investigate..."