Re: Huoshui in the chamber
Macy had called him Cal. This sounded almost right to him, in a blinding moment of painful revelation, he realized that it was shortened; a vulgar argot of familiarity. He knew that his full name was Caleb Worth... That was the first time a flash came to him. The first of a very short list of things he did know - about himself... the world he lived in... anything.
"Look at the bright side..." She said to him, in that frilly thing she wore. There wasn't exactly warmth in her words, but there was heat in every part of her. The sex, rough and angry, just robbed his suspension of belief, so it came to him as almost matter of fact. "Most people know exactly what kind of assholes they are... you don't have that problem."
He chuckled to himself and glanced out the window again, watching the station rise up ahead and just to port. They were making approach, and his heart pounded seeing the place. There was a familiar feeling about it for him, and that seemed to always bring the pain.
The pain he feared, and dreaded... it was like his brain angrily trying to claw it's way out of his cranium.
The pain he needed, and wanted... it always brought with it insight; a vision, a memory... a portent.
In his twelve days of conscious existence he had had exactly 97 of these painful flashes... they had culminated in all that he knew. 97, and he thought about how little that was, and how much that was.
He waited for the pain to come as the shuttle docked... he waited as the mechanical clamps, and armatures moved the vessel into the best boarding position... he waited as he left the cabin. He waited, but it did not come.
He smiled as he passed the boarding assistant on the way out. He smiled and thought of the wild, insatiable thing that was Macy, and her words to him.
"I don't love you, Cal... I could... but not until you know yourself a bit better. Till you know... Like I know... what kind of asshole you've truly been."
"Yeah... I got a pretty good idea the kind of asshole I -am-" he muttered to himself as he showed the lady his passport.
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