Hey guys!

Gosh I miss you all so much! College takes up so much of my time, it is not even funny! :/

Well, I have been all right. I just recently had to call off my engagement in mid-July so I've been dealing with that still because I'm still in the stages of grieving it. College is hectic because my Chemistry class is seriously kicking my butt with the work overload, but I'm actually managing quite well with four classes.

Hmmm, I think that's about it. Oh wait! I have a band try out soon for female vocalist so wish my luck with that too! :3 I really want to land this gig because who wouldn't want to be in a rock band?! Haha.

Have a wonderful day guys and girls!

With much love,
Zoey. <3

*Gets into cheerleader outfit*

*Cheers on the vocalist try-outs will be awesome and you'll get it*

and oh no, here have a hug and some more hugs, it sucks when things end, but think it like this, you're young, lots can happen

But also take your time grieving, make sure you've handled all the feelings now, don't lock it up and say everything is fine

Chemistry is hard, but you'll kick it's butt yet

WE BELIEVE IN YOU!!!!!

*huggles*

I have the try-out today! I'm so nervous, haha. I think I've got a shot though. :3

I have been grieving every day. The first month was pretty hard but it has gotten so much better. I still feel sad and some days I'll cry a tiny bit, but I am rather proud of myself. I write my feelings down on paper just to get it out and some days I'll call my brother and vent to him about it but he tends to make me forget why I even called him, haha.

I actually have a Chem. exam today. Chapters 1-7. I'm very nervous about that more than anything because I struggled with the last two chapters so I think that'll be the reason why I may not get a decent grade. :/ But wish me luck on that!

*huggles*

but thank you for your kind words! I needed to hear the encouragement. :]

* Gets into Cheerleader outfit*

You an do it, Zoey!!!  Good luck on the chem and the rock band.  :)

*cheers more*

*does some elaborate jumps*

*falls over*

*gets up and keeps cheering*

You can do it!!!! you can do it!!!!

and we will always be here to support and listen, or me, I'll force the rest... muahaha

*cheers even louder*

Wooohooooooooo!!!!!!!

A rock band member AND cheerleader??   Nice!!!

Good luck with everything, my friend.   I believe in you, too.

And I've had a few break ups.  half mutual and half being the one dumped, and it gets better over time.


Reminds me of a comedy routine I just heard:

A comedian was talking about how he was dumped, and his friend gave him some good advice.

"Just get rid of or destroy anything that reminds you of her."

So he said:
"So, I took the sheets off the bed, because they smelled like her, and ripped them up into tiny pieces.  I took everything we bought together and smashed it. And I took all the pictures with her in it and put them in a big pile on the coffee table, and set the pile on fire.
And then.....I got the heck out of her apartment, because I figured the cops would be there any minute."

Well once again I disappeared and am back fully this time. :]

I ended up passing all my class that semester, haha. And for the rock band, we released an EP and I eventually withdrew from the band because they weren't committing anymore so I'm a solo vocalist for now who only does covers in my free time.

I have taken a break from school this past semester and probably will again this semester because I enjoy the working right now, haha. I work two part-time jobs and so I llike having the money :P

Congrats on passing your classes, Zoey.

Why thank you. :)

So what have you been up to outside of classes?

I just work a lot honestly. I've gotten back into RPoL though so I'm pretty excited about that now. Video games, work, sleep, rpol, work, sleep, haha. I'm working on getting back into school again to finish my nursing school. :) Im doing pretty well with myself. It's lovely being single and just doing things for myself.

Sorry that I've been distracted by Real Life as well.  That and losing my Muse for a bit.   I'm glad that everyone is going well.

That is totally okay! :D I'm glad you're doing well though.

I can't complain too much.   I'm still recovering from a car accident, but I'm mostly on the mend.  :)

Oh my gosh! I'm so glad you're okay! Car accidents are scary.

I've had like 3 fender benders in my time of driving, two of them not being my fault. I actually just got done fighting one off. Almost had to go through court for it.

Oh geez, I'm glad you're okay, Nuric. Get well soon. That's an order!

I couldn't imagine being in a terrible accident. It scares me enough that it could happen to anyone. People can be so reckless on the road and it upsets me because why couldn't they have been like that taking their driver test? I'm such a good defense driver too, but that may not be enough if something terrible happens.

By my apartment, there is a four way stop and a stop light before that and many people just run through at night and when I'm working the night shift and going home, I feel like that's where I would encounter an accident the most. I don't see the point in running red lights and stop signs. Obviously they are there for a reason right?

The funny thing for me is, I sort of ran myself over with our work truck.
(funny story, really)

But I know what you mean about bad drivers.  We've got a lot of bad/drunk/distracted drivers down her in Texas.  We had someone blow a red light right in front of us just the other day.  If I hadn't been paying attention, and expecting the worst, as usual, I'd have been hit by them.

Please do tell this story! Lol not that it's my business or anything, but you said funny story so I'm trying to imagine how this happened. Thankfully you are okay though.

*chuckles*  well, funny might be stretching it a bit much.

I work at a minimum security prison.  It doesn't have guard towers or stone walls, just high chain link fences and a patrol vehicle that circles the perimeter.
On occasion, I drive that patrol vehicle.  It's not a bad way to spend the shift, with me and another person switching out every few hours.

We have 12 hours shifts so by the end of the shift we can get a little tired, though I usually drink enough soda to avoid that.

Last May, I was in the patrol vehicle, a small Dodge Dakota pick up truck, during a night of torrential rain storms.  The vehicle had been giving us trouble, but that was too be expected, since it's a state vehicle and they tend to make us drive them until they're literally falling apart before getting another one for us.
This one, a 1996 model, was running reasonably well, except for a transmission problem where if you put it in park, sometimes it wouldn't take.  The truck would think it was in Reverse, and start moving backwards, so you had to really slam it into Park, and wait a second to see if it "stuck there".
We'd complained to the supervisors, who promised to look into it when they had the time.
Meanwhile, most of us were being careful to make sure the vehicle had settled into park correctly before we got out, so it wouldn't roll off into a ditch if we got out to get something out of the cooler in the back.

On that stormy night I mentioned, I drove around the perimeter in the rain, and was on the last half hour of my shift.  I was tired and a little punchy, but anxious to get done with my shift and get home to sleep.

I drive around on a dirt road that circles 75% of the prison perimeter, with 25% flanked by the parking lot.  I'd driven through the lot and was entering the dirt road that went off it when I saw something dark in the road.  It was small, so I thought at first it was a branch or something, and even though I was going slow I didn't see it until I was already driving over it.  I passed it without incident, and decided to see what it was.
I put the vehicle in park, and waited to see if it stuck in park.  It did.  So I exited and went to the back of the vehicle.  I saw that the "debris" was a large turtle, about a foot and a half across.  Not wanting to hit it on the way back around on my next pass, I bent over to pick it up.

That's when the vehicle slipped on its own out of Park into Reverse and started rolling back quickly.  I was caught off guard and knocked down, landing on my back.  The rear tire caught me and didn't go over me, but since the vehicle was front wheel drive the truck kept going, pushing me along the gravel road for about 30 feet until we reached the parking lot, where it pushed me along another 30 feet and finally stopped, the friction of pushing me finally slowing it down. It happened so fast I couldn't even think about trying to grab anything.
 About here is when the tire managed to get on top of my chest and stomach area, and I realized I couldn't breath.  I was trapped and suffocating.

I had a thought: "If I believed in god, this is where I would probably pray"
Then, as an atheist, I had another thought.  "Nah.  Fuck that".
And I closed my eyes, to let whatever happened happen.

I passed out at that point.

Unbeknownst to me, there were people from the next shift coming in (since, as I'd mentioned, it was near the end of my shift) and since I was in the parking lot a few of them saw me, and raised the alarm.
Help arrived, with some large men lifting the truck bodily and pulling me out from under it.
Apparently I was blue, but started breathing very soon after being freed.

I was a bit disoriented, but I remember feeling embarrassed and wanting to stand up, but they didn't let me.  I had a gun on me (standard issue for patrol guards) and mentioned that I didn't know where it was, but another officer told me that they'd taken it from my holster while I was regaining consciousness.

An ambulance was called, and I left soon after to the ER.

Luckily, other than a good cut on my scalp and road rash over most of my body, I was more or less unharmed.  There was some internal squishing, and my back is still a bit messed up, but there was no broken bones or spinal damage at least.

That is about it..  sometimes it is Save Money, until it costs.
I'm glad you got out of it relatively okay.

I believe my favorite part of this story was this:



I'm really glad you are okay and still here with us though. I'm rather small, so something like that ever happens to me, I know I'll be a goner for sure, ahah.

But seriously, I'm not surprised they had you guys still driving that vehicle even with that issue. The whole story sounds scary though. Could you imagine had your shift not been almost over, do you think anybody would have gotten to you in time at all? we all hear stories about people getting run down by their own vehicle, but this story is a perfect example why the state needs to do something when people report these issues.

Did the vehicle ever get replaced or fixed after your incident?

In reply to C-h Freese (msg # 211):

* chuckles *   yes, many state agencies are reactive,  rather than proactive.

*smiles *   yes, that story has been my response to many Christians who insist that "there are no atheists in foxholes".

The vehicle was hauled off the next day, and had probably been crushed into a cube somewhere.   :)
You're correct,  though,  I was very lucky.  If the incident had occurred a half hour earlier, 100 yards away, or during the rain storm,  or if I'd been a smaller person (with a larger truck), the outcome could have easily been very different.
I'm thankful to my coworkers who saved me as well.

Where did everyone go?

I hope nobody died! D:

Oh no....it's all quiet and stuff.

Jason Vorhees is coming....ki ki ki ma ma ma...