Re: 185224-995482 System: Lair of the Mailman!
"Well... I betrayed my people, essentially." Her eyes grow far away. "You know the guy who Smoke and I occasionally talk about? Who Sereth talks about like this almost demi-god? The Doctor? Well, he wasn't a demi-god, but he was amazing." She pauses. "He... he refused to participate in the war. Me? Well, you know that story. The Daleks got me, and did to me what they did to Kuvas, but proactively. They not only did... physical things to me, but they made me watch as they changed civilizations, warped and destroyed histories... undid a lot of my good work. They took special care to never coerce me, but they did everything to break my spirit. You see, the Doctor and I were engaged in a war of ideals with them as much as we were engaged a war a physical conflict."
As she holds the arm that Stanley has bandaged up, she leans back in her chair. "And they did it. They -did it-. I regenerated into The Marshall. I became, essentially, a Gallifreyan Dalek. Oh, I hated the Daleks. Of course I did. But Daleks, when no one else opposes them, always fall to fratricide. I did such *horrible things*, Stan, in the name of discipline and order, on the justification that the universe could not be trusted to govern itself. It took 100 years and three Time Lords, lead by the Doctor, to corner me and drag me back to Gallifrey. I cooled my heels for another 100 years in the Citadel. You see, my people would never stoop to something as barbaric as execution. No, Time Lords were imprisoned me and made me think hard about my crimes. And think I did - but mostly, I loathed myself."
She turns in her chair. "Then the war came. They released me. Romana herself came to my cell. She told me how bad it had become, and they had no idea how to fight against a species that knew and lived for nothing but warfare. I told them that having a girl sing at the Daleks wouldn't work like it did against the Zentraedi. Romana offered me my freedom, in exchange for the chance to kill as many Daleks as I could. I thought that my people had finally saw reason, but I was actually looking for a chance to commit suicide by Dalek."
"Of course, they had already resurrected Rassilon, and I saw them bring back the Master, the most evil Time Lord ever to live. I really didn't protest - things were that bad. I sent out the general recall signal to every single one of us who was wandering. There were quite a few who chose to have nothing to do with the War - Exeter, Parcella, Drax, Corsi, The Rani, and of course, The Doctor. Not to say that they weren't doing their thing."
"So. Early in my career I discovered this thing called the Time Lock. It's this equation - it was devised by Omega - one of our greatest. It was originally a safety measure. You see, we had this source of power called the Eye of Harmony. It used to power Sweet Boy, here. It was an artificially created black hole that was so tremendously powerful that it essentially conferred near absolute control over time and space. It powered our entire civilization, and it reached from the beginning to the end of time. When Rassilon - the founder of our society - and Omega created the Eye, the Time Lock was meant to be a safety back up that would kick in and protect the universe from the Eye if it went amuck and anything went wrong. Well, things didn't. So, it gets put away and forgotten. I come across it, but like a good girl I leave it alone in the vaults. During my Marshall days I entertain ideas about using it to blackmail the high council into a war with the Daleks, but when the Time War comes along, well, no need for that."
"I find the Doctor after a disaster on a place called Raxos. The Dalek Emperor had just seized something called the Cruciform. It would enable the Emperor to break past the Transduction Barrier which protected Gallifrey. In response, Rassilon was planning on destroying the material universe, although we weren't sure how. Things were rapidly reaching endgame. We had two cards left up our sleeves - the Time Lock, and a weapon called The Moment. I had been placed in charge of something called the Vault of Omega - it was every doomsday weapon the Time Lords had ever devised. Except, however, I had been ordered to use all of them, except for the Moment. The Moment, you see, was a weapon capable of destroying selectively entire civilizations across an entire galaxy up and down the entire timeline from the beginning to the end of time, removing the offending civilizations entirely. It even had a failsafe - it had a conscience. It would only allow itself to be used by someone who it felt was a good person, using it for a good cause. So, that ruled me right out."
"So, I see no options. As Rassilon carries out his unanimous vote to destroy the cosmos, and as the Daleks break through, I pass to the Doctor The Moment, and my Exigents cover for my as I make my way down to the Eye of Harmony, and I engage it to work the final calculations to activate the Time Lock. I and Romana had our last conversation then. She and Boobie kept calling me The Traveller, even though I clearly was not, then. I even had a plan to get some of the Gallifreyan civilians out with some Arks. I have no idea if it even worked. I've seen no sign of them, so, probably not."
"The Doctor tells me that he'd like his hat back, and to indulge him, just this once. To honor a dead man's last wish, I make my way back to Sweet Boy. Still had my key. Once I get inside, the door sequence locks and the time rotor starts. That old bastard explains that he's sending me off to a paralell universe that I had visited earlier in my career, back when I was good - one with magic and wizards and mutants and giant robots - no, not the one with the transforming jet planes - and I'm crying like a girl and banging my fists on the control console and demanding that I die with him. As Sweet Boy goes hurtling into the CVE, I see the Lock activate and something happens - fire and power and time screaming - the Moment, obviously. The last I see of him is him regenerating. Northern england accent, big ears."
Tears stream down her face. "I wind up in R space. I end up regenerating as a baby, and an old magician friend of mine puts me up with a human family. I grow up as Louise. I have adventures, meet a great guy, fight the Coalition, have kids, have an amazing life. Later on, these time demons need me to be a Time Lord, so I get targeted, and a big dog demon tears out old Louise's throat. Another pal of mine had my fob watch nearby - so, I regenerate, and remember everything. I'm the Traveller again. 150 more years, with another crew, versus time demons, but a much different Trav. The one in front of you."
"We eventually defeat the Shedraya - the time demons. I spend a few years with my husband and kids, but I have to eventually leave. They grow old, I regenerate, you know? I suppose this is justice. I loaded up the Doctor like a bullet into a gun and put him to the head of my own people. Sure, my people were nuts and mad and had to be put down to save everyone. Sure, the Doctor knew exactly what he was doing. But my hands, Stan. They're dripping with blood. I love the universe and it's so beautiful but there's a part of me that I hate so much and I am so lonely and it hurts so fucking much and all 5 of me are in so much pain that some days the stars simply aren't enough."
A pause. "And I can't stop yet. I owe too much. There are too many future generations at stake. I need to do everything I can to make time safe. I know I can't do it alone. But I can't not try."
She lowers her face into her hands, and weeps.
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