"Allahumma anta rabbi, la ilaha illa anta,
khalaqtani wa ana 'abduka, wa ana 'ala 'ahdika wa wa'dika mastata'tu,
a'udhu bika min sharri ma sana'tu, abu'u laka bini'matika
'alayya, wa abu'u bidhanbi faghfirli, fa innahu la yaghfiru
al-dhunuba illa anta."
Still trembling from the dream, Sajaa turns her head to behold the concerned, lovely face of her raven-haired friend. Sajaa’s skin is clammy and her hair, pillow and blankets are damp. The image of her mother’s face, with gore-dripping holes where her eyes had once been, is still clear in her mind, but Sajaa manages a smile.
”Yes, Lisa, of course I know your name and understand what you are saying.” Sajaa replies patiently.
”As I knew yesterday and the day before and the day before that …” She pats the woman on the arm and smiles again. To Sajaa, Lisa Rufbin has always seemed a bit … touched … at times. Though of keen intellect, Lisa often appears lost in childlike whimsy. Forgetful. Absent-minded.
Scatter-brained as Major Brashear once described in good-natured confidence to Sajaa.
But if Lisa may be flighty at times, she has been a loyal friend. She saved Sajaa’s life at the Caves with her magic and her kindness. She stood by her for weeks of grueling convalescence – fed her, bathed her, nursed her to health. And, most importantly, with her endless cheer, Lisa had held back the dark, brooding thoughts that plagued Sajaa’s every waking moment. Though her broken body is slowly healing, guilt is a wound that has festered, unchecked since the battle at the Caves. Each morning, noon and night, she has turned to the east, prostrated on her blanket and repeated her prayerful mantra,
Sayyidul Istighfar, seeking Allah’s forgiveness for her sins. Of the murders of her husband and his men … of the abandonment of her mother and sisters who must surely have suffered the consequences of her crimes… Of defying God’s Laws over and over.
But what she did at the Caves of Chaos was the greatest of all sins. In her pride … in her vanity, she defied the orders Rolf and Gustav had given her – to only scout out Norla’s hideout – and chose instead to engage the enemy. Why? To prove herself? To show the men that women can be great warriors, too? Whatever it was, the impulsive act led to a disaster … and drew her comrades in to rescue her, Lisa and Terri … who were then ambushed by Norla’s troops. And one-by-one her comrades fell. And when she should have fought to the end and died bravely with them, Sajaa, the despicable, loathsome coward that she is … ran away...
She draws in a breath and steels herself, then sits up and swings her legs off the edge of the bed. Her arm has healed but her leg is still a constant reminder of the arrows that crippled her. She winces as she moves, the pain shooting up her spine. But she notices, for the first time, it is not as sharp as it was the day before.
Birds chirp outside the window. She looks around the room, taking in the familiar surroundings. The room is small but cozy, with a comfortable bed and a small table by the window. There are a few books on the shelf – the massive tome Lisa has been poring over by candlelight every night – and others which remain mysteries to the illiterate Al-Wazif girl. Some herbs are drying in the corner, and a pot of spring flowers – sent by their generous host, the Major, adorns the windowsill.
Sajaa grits her teeth and rises stiffly from the bed. She limps, nude, to a corner of the room and, unabashed by Lisa’s presence, squats and tinkles into a chamberpot. Then she moves to a pan of water at the table and washes her hands and face. She steps to the window and warms herself in a beam of sunshine as she admires the rugged countryside rolling out before her.
Lisa frowns to notice a fresh cut among the row of numerous, white linear scars marring the ebon skin of Sajaa’s upper left thigh – each cut of equal length, uniform and clearly self-inflicted.
On the chair is a garment Lisa laid out for her. Sajaa slips it over her head and pulls it down over her slender figure – a sleeveless, ankle-length kirtle which she ties at the waist with a simple hemp belt.
”Lisa, this morning I am taking Black Lady for a ride.” She announces as she combs her fingers through her long black hair, no longer feeling exposed without her hijab.
”We both need the exercise and it is such a beautiful day. Greener than my homeland at this time of year.”
She turns, kneels gingerly, and slides out a wooden footlocker from under the bed. She opens the chest and begins dressing in her leathers, which are still stained with splashes of brown from the battle.
”I am going to Three Corners to see about those minions of Norla’s whom we spied guarding the village gates when we returned from the Caves. They will know of Norla’s and The Archer’s whereabouts … and of the traitorous, Demon-Boy Runt, too.”
Now clad in her battle dress, she reaches further beneath the bed and draws out a prayer blanket. She lays it on the mattress and unrolls it to reveal the beautiful, ivory-handled, bejeweled saber that she plundered from the still-quivering corpse of the Sheik, Aarif al-Jalali, her husband of three hours. She slides it from its scabbard and admires the razor-edged blade. Her golden eyes still fixed on the glimmering steel, she says:
”You may come if you like, Sister, but I implore you, not to. For there will be blood.”
She returns the weapon to its scabbard and buckles the swordbelt about her waist.
She then steps over to Lisa and looks her firmly in the eye and says:
”But if you do choose to come, Lisa, know You this. I shall not slow nor stop for you, should you tire or are hurt, or afraid, or are taken, as I know you would for me. Because you are a good person and I am not. I thank you for all you have done for me. But God has turned His face from me. My family is gone. I have nothing but this sword to feed me and Hate to drive me.”
She bends forward and kisses Lisa on the mouth. Then she straightens, takes up her helmet and satchel, and limps to the door.
She turns.
”No more am I Sajaa, Daughter of Kassem the Candlemaker. No more am I Mitra the Fugitive. All that I am. All that I shall ever be from this day forward until I die in bloody glory, God willing, is: Intiqam”
OOC: Sorry for the long delay and the long post. I hope I didn't mess up the storyline any. Intiqam is Arabic for Vengeance. Sajaa’s goal is to go to the Major and thank him for his hospitality, then go to the stables to fetch her horse, and ride to Three Corners (how far away is it?) If its far, she’ll use whatever monies she has to buy rations. She'd like to pick up a buckler if possible, too before she gets into the thick of things.
"O Allah, You are my Lord, there is no deity except You. You have created me, and I am Your servant,
and I am upon Your covenant and promise as much as I can. I seek refuge in You from the evil of what I have done.
I acknowledge Your blessings upon me and I confess my sins, so forgive me, for no one forgives sins except You."
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