Whatever and however you choose to celebrate this time of year ... Happy Holidays, everyone!  Best wishes from my family to yours, this holiday time.  I hope that you are all doing well and I look forward to RPing with you in the new year and beyond.

Happy Yuliszakah to us all.

Poppy dances into the room n naughty elf garb, dragging Balkiir in his Santa outfit...Merry Christmas!!!!

I probably forgot to mention this earlier but my holiday wishes are echoed by Elsbeth and others, happy holidays to one and all and you gamers located in the severe weather areas of the US, TAKE CARE

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to everyone.

Looking forward to picking this up again in the new year :)

sorry everyone, I was away from a computer for the longest time.

a Bit more explanation required I think


A few months ago my mother passed away unexpectedly due to preventable, and predictable causes. Causes that I had  warned my sisters, and brothers about..and causes that had caused a great deal of alienation between my mother and myself in the last couple of years.

Shortly afterward a young lady who was good friends with my girlfriend, and who I was fond of as well.....was murdered by her boyfriend after a breakup...leaving her son an orphan when the bastard shot himself.

these events were aggravated by the financial issues I had been dealing with since nearly loosing my foot and the three months of daily infusions, and wound care that were required to deal with infections after the fact.


over the months as more "stuff" piled on my mood, and my ability to focus on my more enjoyable pastimes has degraded progressively until it his rock bottom when I had go through December..which is my mothers, birthday, and my first Christmas I was not able to at least say hi to mom and catch up on things with her.

I had assumed in the past couple of weeks that I was in a good enough state of mind to return to my more enjoyable pastimes, wit at least enough creativity available to allow me to do a decent jobs at GMing, and storytelling. Unfortunately every time I attempt to do so I stare at a blank screen suffering from complete paralysis of my imagination, creative centers.


as you can tell by my complete absence for quite some time....about the only things I  have been able to focus  on are completely devoid of human interaction, or even the internalized imagined  interactions between people.

Honestly I never realized how much of the same mental, and emotional, wiring was involved with writing out an interaction, rather than actually participating in it.

I am deeply sorry for the delay, and the unfair treatment of my players. But I am going to ask you indulgence  while I deal with the anger, grief, and depression that these events have  left me floundering in. I have a story to tell in the game, and ideas supplied by you players that I really want to see play out..but right now my brain is not cooperating...even writing out this letter has been a major effort and felt like pulling barbwire out through my....ears....

If you chose not to stick around I understand, but if you do..Thank you I will do my best to ensure you are not disappointed.

I'm here for the long haul. You take care of you first.

hey GM, I truly do understand especially the depression part given that that is one of the things I deal with on a daily basis.   Even my meds don't work sometimes on my mood.   Take care of yourself and if you wish to talk just rmail me or something.   I will be going back to school here pretty quickly, in will be online but I've enjoyed the interactions so far so I guess I'm here for the long haul.   SERIOUSLY IF YOU WANT TO TALK JUST LET ME KNOW AND WE'LL WORK SOMETHING OUT.

Take all the time you need to heal up mentally and physically, Prometheus.  RL always takes precedence.  Come back to us if and when you can.  But, don't worry about us; take care of you and yours first and foremost.  Godspeed.

I appreciate the challenges you are suffering and enduring. Even normal boring stuff can cause delays I really like the creativity and openness you built this world with and look forward to your return even if slow and sporadic and imperfect at first. It's okay.

I'm fairly sure we will all be here when you get back.
Our thoughts are all with you and we hope that things get better for you.

In reply to T'risa K'mahda (msg # 287):

Thoughts and prayers are with you and yours.   I have no plans to bail and hope thing get for in the future.

The loyalty of my players never ceases to amaze...and warm my icy three size too small heart.

I'll be trying to get back to you guys soon. it's just my usual methods of dealing with depression, anxiety, and pure anger haven't helped much...and I don't like to dope myself up to avoid dealing with stuff...so I have to work through it the old fashioned way....

friends, family, a little quiet time, and an occasional guttural curse, shouted at the top of my lungs somewhere private.

Okay feelig the creative juices flowing again...If everyone can check in so i know who is still around I would be really happy.

Been busy, with a couple of projects here in RL, but I have had some time to do a bit of plotting.

One Praetorian Colonial Marine present and accounted for, sir!

Bad Ass number one accounted for...

Still tinkering around. :)

Eeee! Eeeeee!

I'm here too :-)

I'm still around

Hey

Sir.  Yes, sir!  Glad to have you back, Prometheus.  I hope that RL is treating you better.

still here

Glad I'm not the only one patiently waiting and hoping this game would start back up