Re: 3b - Settling into Oleg's
"That is very true. No one would know until they had seen it, but I do not think we are likely to point it out and demand others understand it. Going forward; however, it would make things easier for some. " she lifts the water and takes a sip, she no longer bothers to even nibble or play with the food before her. A question shows on her face for a moment at his mention of prayer and peaceful reconciliation of terms, but whatever it is she doesn't ask it, instead taking care to listen. Her eyes easily catch his gaze slip over her shoulder and though she tilts her head to peer, she never overtly looks in the opposite direction. She also maintains her positioning, her face one of deep contemplation, consternation, or possibly both.
"You can't prepare for everything, no matter how hard you try Master Rook. " she says with a half-hearted grin. From any other angle the smile would look bitter and insincere, but from what he can see, it merely looks sad and forced. "I think it best to simply take the journey one day at a time. If you've concerns, speak with De La Maistre about them and gain clarification. It is the surest way to resolve those particular lackings of insight. " As the conversation continues, she turns her view further away, the contemplation returns, sometimes to the point of closing her eyes. Releasing a breath that almost trembles in it's escape she considers his remarks and questions and finds she is unsure how to answer.
Lifting the hand closest to him, she closes herself off by crossing it and rubbing at her neck and just behind the ear in the nervous gesture. Her lips have thinned some and at one point she may even bite down, surprising even herself as she runs her tongue over to find she's made herself bleed. Opening her mouth to speak, she finds no words form, and shakes her head.
When she does finally manage to get the words out, they are not the idealistic romanticism's of youth many have, but a bleak, weary outlook that leaves no doubt of the truth she feels behind it.
"Goals?" she questions again, almost as if the question surprises her, only laughably and unexpectedly, as though she were more surprised at the interest rather than the meaning. "At one time they were very similar to the ones you described. A remnant of my mother, I expect." A sadness creeps along her features as she looks down, lowering a tightly balled fist to her side. "But those... dreams," the last word said with a sharpness, as if the fantasy of the word itself were abhorrent, "They were not meant for the likeness of me." The fist relaxes and is quickly and nervously grabbed by the other, absently rubbing at the same area of covered skin between the thumb and forefinger of her left hand.
"I suppose when all is settled here I will return to the forest as I was before."
Making a sharp gesture, similar to a sharp jerk of her head she rises pacing a moment before closing her eyes and releases a breath. "It is-- nice to know that this time, I will still have friends to visit from time to time," she adds, looking off. The conversation has taken an unexpected turn and lack of sleep has caught her off guard. Her discomfort is noted in every jerky gesture and unsteady breath. The stance is familiar to anyone who has hunted before. The deer just before the strike, ready to bolt at a moments notice.
Which is exactly what happens the moment Valoria shows up, through no fault of her own. "No, no. Of course not, I was just in need of air. If you'll excuse me. " she gave a smile and curt nod to both Valoria and Rook and made a break for the nearest exit.
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