Re: Matthew's New Life
Ah. Well, I'm not sure. Now that the prospect of death was actually here I wasn't sure I wnted to go through with it. It didn't matter that I was apparently already dead - fear of death was still there. But then again, I was dead, so what did it matter? I remembered something a fellow poet had once told me - that everyone has a "love of death", or a curiosity for what would happen if you pushed the big red button that said "Do Not Press". I realised now this was true, and that I had already held my hand out for the sword. Now that I was dead it didn't matter. I was a little scared that I had taken this for a fact so easily, but right now I was simply filled with a desire to fulfil all the temptations from the real life - temptations like stepping out in front of cars and jumping off tall buildings just to see what it felt like. The first time would be hard, I knew, and it would hurt but I was no stranger to pain. In fact it could be rather exhilerating.
Ok. But I want to do it. I dropped my book on the ground. I knew all the peoms off by heart, and besides, it was time to start a new life.