[Quest] Third Keenbellow Exploratory Expedition
Tidelan eventually answers with "Gaea is not a goddess. She is the soul of the world."
Explaining in an unshakably calm voice, "If every god shatters the earth, swallows the seas and makes the sky become ash, she will survive it all"
"If every thinking thing dies, she will not vanish. If every living thing dies, she will create unimaginably more with but a breath."
He gives a small smile and lowers his head in a gesture of humility, though it wasn't directed towards anyone who appeared to be present, he added, "Gaea does have many sisters. One is Annwn; the soul of the sylvan world"
Thinking for a moment, the druid adds, "It can be called as the Feywild, but that is a bad name, I think."
He continues, "The story of the Fey is much too old for me to tell. The beginning is also not sure. At least, they were born when men touched this world.
Taking a sharp inhale of breath, as if he were fearful of something, "At most, they were born before the eldest gods, formed before the worlds and the stars, and existed before the planes were ordered"
He calmed down with a shaky breath, "It is known they are myths. But, the question is if they are the myths of men, or creatures much older."
Back to his usual demeanor, he finishes, "And Annwn is their goddess, I guess. I have just had dreams of her worship, and it... hmm... it... Fuh, I lack the words."
He snorts at himself before compromising, "Then, I will explain the dreams." he adjusts his sitting posture from cross-legged to seiza, maybe his legs are tired or he is channeling something, "The first knowledge that man has of The Fey is as nature gods... not gods... sort of gods... ugh." he seemed frustrated with his inability to explain how they had been different from gods, but also alike. This was unclear, but he quickly moved on.
"Later, they were obscure in worship... Maybe they were busy, or maybe it was us. At some time in their realm, which is bad to say because Feywild time does not agree with our time, something happened and The Seelie and The Unseelie did form. Only the most ancient fey remember this or any things before."
He concluded his tangent, "Now, Annwn is worshipped less than she was before the fey courts. I do not know the situation well, so please do not judge them with just my words. I do not think they have abandoned their goddess... She is still worshipped, but it is feared, by what groups I do not know, that they grow distant from her."
As silence filled the air at the end of a tale that could never do justice to it's scope, he exhaled into the cold air, and the mist seemed lavender-hued, but it could have just been the light of the rising sun.
The moment passed and Tidelan spoke in his usual gruff voice, rather than the almost musical one that he seemed to adopt while storytelling, "So now you know why it is hard to place Annwn to Gaea. They are sisters, but who is older is not known."
Tidelan's face went hard for a moment and he looked at Boneclaw and Spark with a bit of guilt, "The Gods are most definitely above us, but as a shaman I must wonder if they are the creators, or maybe it was us." his last four words seemed to be resonant, as if they carried more meaning than even he knew. Tidelan had a dreamy feeling, as if he was getting deja vu.
"I did call the gods 'eldest', to mean those who may have made the first life. Some wisemen declare that elves and dwarves came before men, or even that men were the last true race in the world. They normally explain by saying there are no gods of men, like there are gods of elves and gods of dwarves. The origin of men is a mystery, then."
He looks a bit sheepish, "If I may be so bold, I believe all races came from the earth, and that the gods are... the sylvan manifest."
He went quiet then. After all this, Tidelan had still not clearly explained what 'The Sylvan' was. Many knew it as a language of the fey, but Tidelan always spoke of it as a concept, and had even tied it in some ways to his idea of 'honor'. This 'Annwn' entity seemed involved, but even the extent of that was unclear.
Perhaps Tidelan was just speaking of things he didn't fully understand yet. In fact, that was most probably the case as to why he wouldn't give any absolute answers.
There may have been more than just the one reason why he always spoke so stiffly.