member, 802 posts
 You can call me V, just V
 Life; a journey made once
Sat 26 Jan 2019
at 23:32
Re: NOTHING but VENTS - Vent all you want without replies
I feel like a failure as GM. More over, I feel like a failure as a human being. I seldom feel guilt about it, as I consistently try the best I can, and only short of making being a GM, or good housekeeper more important than things like eating, and bathing.

I have PSTD, OCD and Tourettes, those who know me know this quite early in their getting to know me. It's difficult though. Because my maximum is often at other poeple's minimum.

I get a lot of grief from players (not often but in large doses) when I fail, and I can't help but feel for them, I am a flake in that I update my games infrequently, and have no job but homemaker. I should by rights being doing more, but I have tried. Sat for hours, and I mean 13+ hours on a game just doing updates and answering questions. Most of which is the cognitive handling, not writing. I write long posts, but in reality they take very little time in comparison. It seems like I should be posting much more, and have much more successful games. There are GMs whom have my post rate in one year which I had to earn by luck and several years.

I am thankful I have a select few players whom are diehard supporters of me. When I give up on myself, they don't, and it's for them and because of them I get back in the saddle again.

More on the vent is my life. I am disabled and receiving federal disability benefits. I have contemplated suicide on countless occasions, but never attempted it. I have tried, believe it or not, to get mental help in mental hospital citing I don't want to die, but feel I am only a drain, not contributing force to the world. Of the four or five times (if you count the time they never saw me in five hours) I've never been committed, despite asking to be. One doctor even said "Come back, if you are ever serious about killing yourself" which I was aghast at. Serious about?

In the end, I value friendship of my highest priority. I would, will, and have sacrificed sleep, eating, and even other fatigues to be with friends. I just wish I had better luck with people, and could spend the time in better quality.

This message was last edited by the user at 03:32, Sun 27 Jan 2019.

 member, 50 posts
 A Blast From
 The Past!
Wed 30 Jan 2019
at 18:30
Re: NOTHING but VENTS - Vent all you want without replies
About six months ago, my wife and I came up with a plan to FINALLY escape the South (US). We talked it over, ironed out any and all wrinkles, and transferring my job to Vermont where we have always dreamed of going. After we had literally all the kinks worked out, we let my sister and brother-in-law know and told them what we were going to do, as we knew both of them were fundamentally unhappy living in the South, too.

About the middle of October, my sister invites us out to dinner and she gives us this whole song and dance about how Maine is like Vermont, only better - especially for her husband who is retired military and exceptionally sick. Although we hedged and hemmed, we relented to change our plans in order to move up to Maine at her urging so that all four of us would have a support network in place. By the next week, their house was sold and in the process of closing and all that stuff (they lived in a pricey city/college town). My wife and I were not ready to go, yet, but we were told by them both that we would be welcome to stay with them, use their vehicle, and all that good stuff until we could get on our feet. We agreed, though with a huge amount of reservation, but we were worried about them, y'know? I'm the elder sibling. It's my job to look after her.

Turns out, Maine is not as..well..accommodating to transplants in the middle of winter. My job refused to transfer to Maine due to the shipping costs of my product line (after I had been assured it wasn't a problem) and it took me until last Tuesday to finally get a job. This caused my Bipolar 2 Disorder to kick in full tilt from the end of December up until..well...it hasn't stopped, yet and if you have, or know someone with this condition, you know it isn't pleasant. It basically robs you of your motivation to even live, let alone manage basic human functions like eating and sleeping. During this two month period, my sister goes out of her way to treat my wife like absolute human garbage and a slave. Then once my wife stopped interacting with her completely, she turned on me - speaking to me in condescending tones, "correcting" my mistakes with adamant disgust, or - as it has been this entire week - cooking literally all the food that we bought "for the house", as per our agreement, and then discarding it afterwards because it "didn't turn out right". I haven't eaten all week (since last Tuesday) because all we've had in the house that she hasn't destroyed yet is Pop Tarts and Ramen Noodles and I turned those over to my wife because I'll NEVER let my wife or our pets go hungry. I'll starve to death before that happens!

Last night, my Crohn's Disease flared up in a bad way after several months of remission and I got about forty-five minutes of sleep. After I walked my wife to work in a foot of snow and subzero temperatures, I came into my room and went to sleep. About two hours later, there came a banging on my door. Dear SIster wanted me to "get off my lazy rear end" and go shovel the driveway. I said I would and she demanded to know why it wasn't already done. I explained to her that, between finally getting my first day of work, walking my wife to work (because we've been denied use of the car at her instruction) and my Crohn's, I wasn't exactly feeling up to shoveling snow at 5 AM. She said that didn't matter because she "might" want to go somewhere later. I said fine, all you had to do was mention that and I would have done what I could to assist her exodus. Might have taken several hours, but it would have been done like the last time. After I finished shoveling, she says to her husband in a voice that I *know* she uses when she's trying to make sure she's heard by the person she's talking about that, "she'll be glad when we're gone" and that "we're leeching off of them".

For the record, we've bought all the groceries, helped clean and repair this 110 year old shack, shovel the snow every day it snows, put gas in the car (that we're forbidden from using), and helping out with whatever little odds and ends that are asked/demanded of us while she stays in bed until 10 AM, then goes downstairs and naps on the couch until 4 or 5 PM.

So after this final blowup this morning, I sat alone in our bedroom and cried for an hour and a half because my sister, my blood, used me and used my wife to fulfill her dream - yes, Maine is not where my BIL wanted to move to. He was fine with Vermont. My sister, the architect of this madness, screwed all of us over for her own selfish desires. I called my mother this morning and begged her to put together about $2000 for us to come back home with because we're flat broke. Then, as I was doing the house's laundry while waiting for the call back from my mom, my sister walks downstairs to the basement and goes, "You, your bumper sticker wife, and your fruiting pets need to be out this weekend." My BIL then came downstairs and said, "I tried to stop her. I don't know what's gotten into her, but I'm sorry."

I'm currently waiting for the call back.
 member, 61 posts
 Mystagogue of Aether
 Elven Archmage
Mon 25 Feb 2019
at 19:30
Re: NOTHING but VENTS - Vent all you want without replies
I like my IT job most of the time, I fruiting hate that I was born with anxiety, easily distracted and hipotyroidism which makes me always the runt in the teams because I can't frogging run at the same speed others do with natural ease.

This message was last edited by the user at 19:30, Mon 25 Feb 2019.

 member, 7073 posts
 Gaming for over 30
 years, and counting!
Tue 26 Feb 2019
at 07:34
Re: NOTHING but VENTS - Vent all you want without replies
I'm not sure when 'pest control' got added to my job description (although, in this particular case, I did it to myself...but that's after years of seeing that if I didn't do it, it wouldn't get done)...

But I had to dispose of three dead rats this morning, when I got to work.  Two of them were dead when I got there.  I had to kill the third one.  And I'm pretty sure from the mess he left behind that he disposed of a fourth one before I found him (the empty rat trap and bloody floor nearby were pretty big hints...)

I think that's enough 'Monday morning ick' for the rest of the year, thanks...
 member, 7079 posts
 Gaming for over 30
 years, and counting!
Mon 8 Apr 2019
at 01:26
Re: NOTHING but VENTS - Vent all you want without replies
Y'know...if you're going to have your character try and pull rank, it would be prudent to actually investigate and make sure your character has the brass to do it...because when you're wrong, you look really foolish.  Especially when you try to keep arguing the point long after you've been shown a website that displays, quite readily, just how wrong you really were.
 member, 602 posts
Thu 18 Apr 2019
at 15:40
Re: NOTHING but VENTS - Vent all you want without replies

Link says it all really.

And it basically means I'm f%&£#d!
 member, 1383 posts
 "Hugs for the Hugs God!"
 - Warhammer Fluffy-K
Thu 18 Apr 2019
at 16:15
Re: NOTHING but VENTS - Vent all you want without replies
Fudge anyone who ever puts their morals and decency aside for a paycheck. Fudge anyone who says that the ends justifies the means as an excuse to do evil and corrupt things.

How in the heck can the greater good be good if it is composed entirely of evils!?!?!?

 member, 130 posts
Wed 19 Jun 2019
at 01:21
Re: NOTHING but VENTS - Vent all you want without replies
I'm normally a fairly calm guy.
I'm normally able to fall with the punches -- ok
I can generally take criticism for what "I" do, and what "I" can control just fine.

I'm getting to the point where I've wanted to just physically rip people's head off over the last few weeks.
I'm doing the job of 3 different positions at the moment thanks to staffing.
On top off that I've been given a task to take care of accounts for several other departments because they have not done it.
I have 3 trainees that I'm the only person currently qualified to train at the moment.
It has been over 2 weeks with no day off thanks to various issues.

I'm getting pulled aside because the computer says I'm taking over 4 hours to write a schedule due to the # of alterations I do (each alteration is worth so many minuets). I can write the thing in roughly 45 - 75 min, and I've done it in front of you.

Well Mr. smartypants computer. If you would have scheduled a require bookkeeper on those days I wouldn't be altering anything! That is your fault not mine!
Well Mr Smartypants computer. I do not need 2 people in that department across the noon hour traffic/work load should show that. If it were coded properly I wouldn't be needing to alter it.
Well Mr Smartypants computer I do not have enough staff to grant 1/2 hour lunches so I have to reduce shifts to 4 hour block. If it were coded properly for our store's foot Traffic I wouldn't be making an Alteration.
Well Mr. smartypants computer if you could look into the future and schedule the two employees who work other places to only be on their day off/days they can do a short shift--- you guessed it I wouldn't be making an alteration.
Hey Mr. smartypants computer if you could get my scheduled rotation right, instead of deleting it or getting messed up on the 5 week months, I WOULDN'T BE ALTERING IT grrrrrrrr

And Mr. Store owner, when I tell you that you have 20 minuets because I'M coverage for lunches and breaks don't hold me 45 and bitch at me for not having coverage on the floor!!!!!
I'm not given enough scheduled hours to have people standing around "just in case"
you want 300 hours. I've got them for you IF YOU LET ME DO MY JOB!


If I'm going to be "Talked to" because of another manger acting like a jerk, well talk to them. If it was busy, why didn't they call for help? If it was busy and they were off the clock, Why didn't they call for help AND why were they working off the clock in the first place? Lastly WHY IS IT MY FAULT THEY ARE ACTING LIKE A JERK IN FRONT OF CUSTOMERS? THEY are a manager and should know better. THEY are not part of my department. THE reason why the incident happened in the first place is because I told you that you had 20 min until I had to be down on the floor!!!

It has been over an hour and my face is still burning.
 moderator, 15756 posts
 He's big, he's bad,
 but mostly he's Ron.
Thu 4 Jul 2019
at 14:58
Re: NOTHING but VENTS - Vent all you want without replies
You were our friend for eleven years.  An endless source of happiness, comfort and companionship.  Now you are gone, and nothing will ever fill that space.

Hunt well Skugga.

This message was last edited by the user at 15:28, Thu 04 July 2019.

 member, 67 posts
 I've Been Touched By
 His Noodly Appendage
Fri 5 Jul 2019
at 00:08
Re: NOTHING but VENTS - Vent all you want without replies
The reason I posted was to ask if anyone else had had the same experience. It said so in the post title, and in the first line, and again in the last line. I was not looking for answers. Solidarity, not solutions.

I especially was not looking for, "Do this thing you already said you did in the OP," "Just let your husband do it," or "I don't think that's a problem because it doesn't bother me."

I know I have a female-sounding username. In retrospect, I should have picked something neutral like my last name or ElonIsJesus4949. That does not mean my question is not valid. It does not mean I am incapable of handling it without my husband's assistance. It does not mean your condescending language is permissible. It especially does not mean you're allowed to whine about my politely responding to the sole helpful, non-condescending poster and ignoring the rest of you trolls and your useless, juvenile responses.

I'm also mad at myself. I should have known better to ask a question on forums that have a history of answering "My car won't move when it's in reverse" with "Have you tried putting it in reverse?"


On a similar note, I do not appreciate your lecturing me on the inefficiency and environmentally irresponsibility of internal-combustion engines and how electric vehicles are better in every single way when I have JUST STEPPED OUT of my electric vehicle. I already drank the kool-aid, bucko. Now get off my lawn.
12th Doctor
 member, 109 posts
 Laugh Hard. Run Fast.
 Be kind.
Fri 5 Jul 2019
at 15:01
Re: NOTHING but VENTS - Vent all you want without replies
Looks like racists are bent because Disney has cast a dark-skinned girl to play Ariel in the upcoming live-action "Little Mermaid." You know, mermaids. Those fictional characters that don't actually exist, so you don't have any actual point of reference as to their melanin content.
 member, 1446 posts
 "Hugs for the Hugs God!"
 - Warhammer Fluffy-K
Sat 6 Jul 2019
at 00:28
Re: NOTHING but VENTS - Vent all you want without replies
I just LOVE how every wedding I go to ends up being a chaotic mess and everyone just expects me to save the day because I saved the one before. ďOh you fixed xís wedding can you help with mine?Ē

NO I just want to drink and dance not coordinate caterers and DJZS
 member, 1456 posts
 "Hugs for the Hugs God!"
 - Warhammer Fluffy-K
Sun 14 Jul 2019
at 01:16
Re: NOTHING but VENTS - Vent all you want without replies
Why do drivers think that when I put a turn signal on to change lanes that is a great time to suddenly accelerate and try and pass me on the side I am turning.

Farging iceholes I'm in front of you! I am going faster than you! This isn't a race you bass tartlets. Hanging out in my blindspot as we suddenly drag race down the highway is not the point of driving and if I just follow through and cut over, if my car hits you, you're going to be farging liable because you're behind me.

If someone ahead of you signals to switch lanes and you're not about to pass them that very second you slow the farg down and let them in.

(all credit to Johnny Dangerously for the creative writing)

This message was last edited by a moderator, as it was against the forum rules, at 04:24, Sun 14 July 2019.

 member, 7138 posts
 Gaming for over 30
 years, and counting!
Sat 7 Dec 2019
at 09:59
Re: NOTHING but VENTS - Vent all you want without replies
Y'know...I wasn't going to do this tonight...but where it's past 2:30 AM and I'm STILL at the movie theater on a night I don't normally go in at all...

So, backstory, just to get you up to speed.  I work at a discount theater, I'm the guy who downloads all the hard drives into our servers, and takes the schedule they prepare and programs it into the system so everything runs automatically and the managers, hopefully, never need to come upstairs between opening and closing.  For the past...oh, two months and change, we had a weird software glitch pop up, and we couldn't download any new trailers, at all...every time we tried, we'd get an error message that popped up.  It didn't affect any of our movie drives, just the ones with the trailers.  And, being a discount theater, it was no big deal...I mean, we're just starting to show stuff that came out in early October, so not getting the latest movie trailers for a few weeks wasn't a problem for anyone besides me, and for me, it was just an inconvenience.  But I got ahold of the dealer for our projection gear and let them know it was a problem...

And nothing happened.  A couple of weeks went by, and I contacted them again.  "Oh, crap...I forgot you had told us about that.  I should be able to get up there sometime this week and take care of it, I'm pretty sure it's a hardware problem."  Well...nobody showed up, still a problem the next week.  And the week after that.

Got a text this morning that they had been in, the problem should be solved...so I said I'd come in to check on it.  And it turns out, the problem is only KIND OF solved.  Yes, I can now download stuff off the movie trailer drives...but if I try to do more than one trailer at a time, the server freaks out a little bit and starts failing downloads on me (actually rebooted on me earlier this evening.  Luckily, it can do that while movies are running without screwing up the playback...)  So, I'm sitting here, downloading EACH AND EVERY trailer that we've missed for the past two months, one at a time.  And I'd be done, but I've also been trying to do a little props shopping for a show I'm in...so I get sucked down the rabbit hole of eBay or Amazon for a few minutes, and then realize, "Oh, yeah!  Next trailer, come on, stick with the program here!"  I'm going on six hours, which included the trial and error time of finding out that I couldn't just go through and select all the trailers, like normal (because I did it twice and only got a handful of trailers each time...so then I tried just doing five at a time, and only got the first one...)  Plus, I have rehearsal in the morning...

I kinda want to slap the service tech.  I mean, I even left the drive available so he could test it out once he fixed it.  He put it in the machine, made sure it could read the drive, apparently (which it was doing before...)  But he didn't try downloading anything from the drive, or else he would have discovered that there's still a problem.

I LOVE it when my job is complicated by someone else doing shoddy work on their job.  I mean, it's job security...I've been told repeatedly that I could just about burn down the theater and I'd still have a job, simply because nobody else wants to do what I'm doing, but I actually kind of enjoy it, most of the time.  Nights like tonight?  Not so much...I'm running on sheer bull-headedness right now...I'm gonna get these stupid trailers into the system if it keeps me awake all night...
 member, 714 posts
Mon 23 Dec 2019
at 08:24
Re: NOTHING but VENTS - Vent all you want without replies

This message was deleted by the user at 08:30, Mon 23 Dec 2019.

 member, 7181 posts
 Gaming for over 30
 years, and counting!
Sat 22 Feb 2020
at 01:29
Re: NOTHING but VENTS - Vent all you want without replies
Freakin' scammers...

I spent an hour and a half bouncing messages back and forth with a guy I barely even know who wanted to send me money to go buy him some gift cards from Walmart.  Initially, he said it was urgent...when I told him it would be at LEAST 2 hours before I could get there, he said 'Okay...'  At that point, I started pushing for answers, because his reaction didn't sound very urgent to me...

By the time I got all the details, it had turned into buying $400 worth of eBay gift cards, in $50 denominations, which he was going to send to the "Community Social Help Commission" in New York to pay for the delivery of a prize they said he'd won.  The next half hour was spent trying to explain that said Commission doesn't even exist, according to Google; that legitimate places do NOT ask for eBay gift cards as payment; that, if the offer was legitimate, there is no reason they would charge him a delivery fee when they could simply deduct any expense from his prize; and finally, there was no way in whatever Infernal region you care to reference that I was going to help him flush $400 down the toilet.  And he still sounds like he's determined to do it.

I mean, scamming ANYONE is bad enough...but if you're gonna go that route, develop at least some minuscule modicum of decency and rip off people who can afford it.  This guy's got next to nothing...

UPDATE:  Turns out it was not him that I was bouncing messages with.  Someone apparently got the password to his FB account and hit up a LOT of people with the offer.  So, I despise the scammers even more, but at least I feel better about the guy in question.

This message was last edited by the user at 03:01, Thu 27 Feb 2020.

 member, 106 posts
Thu 27 Feb 2020
at 02:43
Re: NOTHING but VENTS - Vent all you want without replies
And....again, I have to explain to people who make three times as much money at their job than me, who have 1/3 my education and nothing near my experience, that WATER, yes, the wet stuff, freezes when it gets cold.  Every year, about this time, where we are located on the planet Earth, water freezes when it is winter.  Yet this is a shock to them, every year.  And to top it off, the same people are 'supervising' me.
 member, 2210 posts
Sat 29 Feb 2020
at 12:47
Re: NOTHING but VENTS - Vent all you want without replies

This message was deleted by the user at 12:48, Sat 29 Feb 2020.

 member, 1 post
Sat 28 Mar 2020
at 01:59
Re: NOTHING but VENTS - Vent all you want without replies
Anyone wanna chat?
 supporter, 334 posts
Sat 28 Mar 2020
at 03:18
Re: NOTHING but VENTS - Vent all you want without replies
I really hate when stupid companies do mean, nasty things just to pinch some cents from their employees just for the very sake of it! The little that they earn this way will never compensate the big self harm they do by upsetting and demotivating their most loyal and value producing employees! This will only help the hateful careers of some despicable corporate climber hidden in some central corporate office, that can claim s/he earnt the company so much money with that mean action...
 member, 138 posts
 Hopepunk with a shovel
Mon 30 Mar 2020
at 02:25
Re: NOTHING but VENTS - Vent all you want without replies
Sometimes I feel I am more like a collection of scar tissue than a person.
 member, 120 posts
Sat 18 Apr 2020
at 01:30
Re: NOTHING but VENTS - Vent all you want without replies
I can't delete an account because, at some point, they confuse my free plan (that came from before they acquired the initial website) for something that should be treating like an auto-renew billing contract.
 member, 38 posts
 Md, USA
 GMT -4
Tue 28 Apr 2020
at 07:21
Re: NOTHING but VENTS - Vent all you want without replies
Take a break from this site for several years. Ahhh the memories

This message was last edited by a moderator, as it was insulting, at 13:54, Tue 28 Apr 2020.

 member, 7222 posts
 Gaming for over 30
 years, and counting!
Wed 24 Jun 2020
at 05:30
Re: NOTHING but VENTS - Vent all you want without replies
These are definitely First World problems...but man, they're starting to stack up.  Had the water shut off in one of the buildings I work in at my primary job because a drain pipe that runs RIGHT under the center of the stage collapsed, and right now their solution is to keep a sump pump down there running and turn off the water...no timetable for when they're going to fix it.

That happened last week.  Today, the water heater in the other building I work in decided that it had reached the end of its useful life...I walked into the laundry room, turned on the lights...and noticed that half the floor had standing water on it. I nursed it along through two loads of laundry, then shut off the water and the power to it (it's an electric model, not gas) and drained it.  Between what had initially leaked out and what I had to keep mopping up while doing the laundry, I soaked up 15 gallons of water, with a string mop...

I don't want to know what's next.  Hopefully, nothing, because this year's already been weird enough...
Harley Quinn
 member, 27 posts
Fri 3 Jul 2020
at 01:10
Re: NOTHING but VENTS - Vent all you want without replies
You know how when you go to delete a game here you have to check off ďI have given all my players due notice.ď?

There is a certain GM (I wonít publicly shame him) on this site that just deletes without any notification. Didnít post a message about it, didnít PM, didnít rmail, nothing.