Re: More good stuff.
Having less stress, and blaming myself less (but still some:/) for things I didn't do, have make my many neurological difficulties easier. I play more video games, and those are either with my roommate (which is rocky, but not bad) or SP. I have complaints, I have difficulties, but I feel relegating a lot of what I shouldn't do to people who should, but don't, is better. I also think, most importantly, limiting things I can't do, to instead things I will do, and focus on what I can and am doing is helping.
I'm, IIRC just about a month off of RPoL in all but one game I play, and under a local GM. I often feel the itch to start back GMing, but don't, for hope when I do I'll be better for recognizing what scope I can do online is much much smaller than it was ten years ago face to face. Hack'n'Slash isn't for me, but I could do with simplifying things closer to that end, much closer, than the huge intrigue I "know" I can do, but just don't online.
It hurts to hear my mother talk about her five seven animals, and how much of a burden they are, while I would love to afford a therapy dog; but it grows a desire that when, not if, I get that dog, be it just shelter dog that needs loves; and I can support it financially, then I will have more company and look back to now, when I need to walk it in the sleet, and look back to last night, when I have to correct its behavior in my household. I really don't think this is like winning the lottery, or even having kids. I think one day I'll have a nice doge, and feel a love I haven't since 2010.
I'm happy I'm getting more physically able. I cleaned the bathroom, except the floor. I went to clear the main room and just kept tripping. I'm glad Parkinsonism I have comes and goes, and I have more fair days that I play it safe, and still have good days. The less stress and the less I try to take on more than I can, and the less I give to taker that have no limits and I have low stock; the better my mental and especially neurological health is.
I smiled a lot over the past two days. I really came close, close close. That felt nice.