In reply to BabsME (msg # 11):
Sadly. It doesn't have a place here to explain fully, but simply (and incompletely) put I'm starting fresh.
Like most, I think, that don't celebrate Christmas; I still want people to have Merry Christmas if that's something they can, and want to, do.
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I don't have but two friends that celebrate Christmas and one is local and very toxic. The other I can wish Merry Christmas, but not celebrate it with them. Everyone else I have good relationships with don't celebrate it, and actively choose other days, and I share their sentiments. I have holier days, and I have days that repeat happier memories.
I had four good Christmases in my entire life. So I'm not celebrating it again. I might again, but I'd have to be convinced to in the future.
I'm not okay though, no, but I'm on the road to the New Year and being my best physical friend. I have to leave long term friendship that took everything from me. I, thankfully, have tons of support online, which means I'm going to have access when I go on medical tourism, to have them with me. I'm leaving my life in Kansas behind in 2024, hopefully in June. My friends will miss me, but they don't appreciate me now. I have to go where I can be healthy.
It's off topic, but I don't want people thinking I'm at my worst, just because I'm not okay.
This message was last edited by the user at 21:46, Tue 26 Dec 2023.