Re: Episode 101: The Crow and The Butterfly
Zoey stood in the halls of the hospital, she could see the back of Jack as he left. She stepped forward to go after him but stopped short, "Not like he can see me..." She let out a grunt of frustration and just started walking, aimlessly but quickly. "So it's true, I'm really dea--I can't-- Not yet, I don't know, how did this happen? Alright, alright, I've read about this stuff, it's not so bad, right? Is it? I don't know, now I wish I'd read more. Tom and Krystal know stuff, maybe I can see them again, I don't even know how I got here, how the hell am I supposed to get there...Maybe this is all just one big screwed up dream, well guess what, I'M READY TO WAKE UP NOW!!" Zoey collapsed into a chair. As she clutched her head, tears started slowly running down her cheeks again. "I don't get it..." She looked up to see someone sitting next to her, completely unaware of her presence. Zoey gazed into the woman's eyes and waved her hand in front of her face, "This is insane" she shook her head in disbelief when suddenly she realized another woman was approaching to sit where Zoey was "sitting", she shot up out of the seat quickly and evaded the woman, terrified of what almost happened.
"Good news honey, he's out of surgery, they said he's gonna be okay"
Zoey watched as the two women celebrated and hugged and cried, all Zoey could do was run in the opposite direction. Her whole body was so full of emotions she was practically shaking as she started to wander the halls again.
Zoey walked past another room in the ICU. An elderly man was standing over someone in the bed. He looked up to see Zoey wandering aimlessly in the hallway. After watching her for a moment, he moved to the doorway. "You don't want to stay here, hon."
Zoey wiped a few tears from her face and turned around, she stared for a second trying to confirm if the man was really looking at her. "You can see me? What are you, another cat person or something?"
The man gave her a puzzled look. "No. I preferred dogs, but I don't think that matters. I can see you and you can see me, because we're alike."
Zoey thought for a moment, "We're alike? You mean like?...oh umm so what does this mean? Is this it? This is our whole existence now? I mean really? No pearly gates, or burning fire we just continue to be stuck here unseen?"
"No, this is in-between. Just a stop along the way. Most people move on almost immediately. Some have a reason to linger. For me, that's Annie." He pointed to the elderly woman sleeping in the bed. "I passed on five years ago, but I decided to wait for her. I don't know where we go from here, but we're going to go together." His face was full of adoration as he gazed at the woman.
He returned his attention to Zoey. "Others get stuck. They're confused. Some of them don't even realize they've died. It's sad."
"There's a reason you're still here. If you can figure out what that is, and resolve it, then you can move on. In the meantime, you need to find an anchor. For me it was my wife but, most spirits prefer to anchor themselves to a place. It's easier. Just... don't linger at the hospital too long. You can get stuck here. Hospitals are full of unhappy and addled spirits. It's a miserable existence."
Zoey peered into the room and looked at Annie, she smiled as most of the anger faded away from her face. She just imagined his little love story and for a moment forgot about her predicament. As he continued on she turned back to him, "But I don't know why I'm here, literally I don't even know how I got to the hospital, I was first in a bar talking to my friends and then poof I'm here. You make it sound like these are all choices. I didn't decide to linger, I didn't choose to be in the hospital I can't imagine how I'd 'anchor' myself and I don't have anything to resolve. All of this is just happening to me, I don't seem to have any control over anything" Zoey looked frustrated again the more she thought about it.
"It can be like that sometimes, especially when death comes suddenly." He gave her a sympathetic smile. "You're very young. I'm sure you weren't expecting this. For people our age," he gestured towards himself and his wife. "Not only is death expected and planned for, but it can sometimes be a relief."
"Your spirit is getting pulled to places against your wishes, because you haven't taken control. It's really just a matter of your strength of will. He wrinkled his brow as he paused to think for a moment. "What makes you feel safe or happy? Is it a person, a place, or an object?"
Zoey thought for a moment, "Hmmn I don't know, I mean I don't have a lot of friends or family but I had recently started getting close to my uncle, there's my music and computer work but I don't think that's what you mean." Zoey scrunched her face as she pondered some more, "Yknow what, there is this bar...uh that's not what it sounds like, I DJ there, all my friends and even my uncle frequent there, its always felt homey in a weird way. When I play my music and watch the people go, my mind can just get lost in the crowd, I love it. That's actually where I was before I was suddenly here..."
"A place where everybody knows your name?" He smiled at his little joke, oblivious to the fact that Zoey was probably too young to have seen the television show he was quoting. "You were there before you came here? Is that where you passed on? Many spirits anchor to their place of death. Some by choice, others get stuck. The place of death can create a powerful bond. If you focus on the moment of your passing, you will be drawn to where you died. If you dwell on your death too much, there is a risk of getting caught in a loop where you keep reliving it. I don't recommend that. However, if yours was a happy place for you, that won't happen. I suggest you use it. "
"Close your eyes and concentrate. Remember, it depends on your strength of will. Think of your happy place. Just like in Peter Pan - think of a wonderful thought!" He chuckled to himself.
Zoey smiled and listened closely as the man spoke, she nodded calmly and took a deep breath."If you say so..." she closed her eyes and concentrated. Slowly the man's laughter began to sound distant, when she couldn't hear it anymore she opened her eyes and saw the inside of the Liar's Club.
"Whoa, I can't believe that worked. I shoulda gotten that guy's name..." Frank was the only one inside, his face was full of sadness, as Zoey looked at him her smile faded. "Oh Frank...you were always good to me, I can't believe that that was it, my whole journey...the last time I'll ever play here, the last time I get to snarkily make you listen to pop music." she smirked slightly as she got closer. He was writing on a piece of paper that he then crossed the room to attach to the door. Zoey strained her neck but managed to glimpse the right side, it read "Closed due to a death in the family" Zoey lowered her head and couldn't help but walk away.