Re: Part 12 - Osmur
Haarmon took a deep, deep breath and tried to calm his nerves. It didn't work. He could feel his palms sweating. And his scalp. And his upper lip. And he could feel things going on under the tight tunic that he didn't even want to have to think about.
But he tried to ignore that. All of it. Sometimes, not all the time, but sometimes, when he was on the Nets, and really in the zone, sometimes he felt like he was part of the network. Like the information was not just in front of him, but in some way was him. When this happened he was capable of such feats of data manipulation that he astounded himself. He could almost watch himself perform beyond his own ability.
That was the state he was trying to reach. Because he wanted to do something absolutely impossible.
He plugged his own terminal ("Personal Badass Device" he called it, the PBD) into the Imperial terminal and turned it on. He tried his very very best not to give the tech any sideways glances. He wanted that guy to be studiously ignoring him. Whether from fear or boredom, he didn't much care.
He scrolled through some menus on his PBD, noting the foolish names he'd given everything (current menus included "Crap I Might Need Later" and "Dudes Who Pissed Me Off" and "Don't Delete this Shit it's Important") and hoping the Imp wasn't staring as he tried to get past them quickly. As he reached his destination, he had a vague, almost totally unformed thought that maybe it was time he grew up a little.
After a moment or two he reached a heavily encrypted folder deep in the recesses of his terminal. Things were different down here. There were no bright colours. No clever names. No ironic graphics. Everything down here was cold and grey and had complicated alpha-numeric strings for names and was as organized as any Stormtrooper's footlocker. It was almost as though Mr. 'Am-I-right' Haarmon had been left behind at the doorstep. As though that Haarmon, the gun swinging, dirt-talking, finger-twitching, wookie-mocking Haarmon wasn't allowed down here, down in the basement where the really important stuff was kept.
Harmon's fingers flew across the keypad. He knew he had only a few seconds before the tech was going to start getting suspicious. Or at least curious. And either one was dangerous. Lethal maybe.
He opened a file. Started typing. Lines of code arranged themselves in his mind and iterations and algorithms spun out into infinity behind his eyes. He had to get the most done with the fewest steps. He needed to fundamentally alter the operation of a long, complicated program in moments by reaching down into its essential nature and tweaking it just enough so that the cascading consequences of starting it would push it in the direction he needed it to go, until eventually it did what he needed it to do. It was like trying to bring down an entire installation with a single charge. Or bowling over a thousand pins with one ball. Or changing the weather on Coruscant by flapping your arms on Tattoine. It was an act of exacting precision that bordered on madness. The only reason he was even attempting it was that it had to be done.
Somewhere inside of him, inside that zone, he was warmed by the thought that all three of his friends, each for their own reasons (Rhijans his pride, Shard her ghosts, Jurraga his family) would understand. And even approve. Sometimes, just sometimes, when there was no other way and the stakes got high enough, madness stopped being the problem and started being the solution.
And down in the basement, somewhere in the white-hot crucible of everything Haarmon was and everything he wanted to be, there was a moment when it seemed like the complex, jagged, discordant pieces of the universe all turned to reveal themselves as simple reflections of one single glorious whole. Down there, in that moment, everything seemed so simple, so joyous, that he only just stopped himself from laughing out loud. He pressed Send.
And he took a breath. And he stood up. Unplugged the PBD. Nodded to the tech. "It's fine. Now I'll take that report." He said, and was shocked at how calm his voice sounded.
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