Re: Ereworn: Loss and Gain.
Uthen looks at the Priest.
"Father. I have been a warrior for close to five years now, ever since I earned my spurs. I try to fight the good fight - I don't claim to be a Crusader and I won't say all my fights have been for God, but I've tried to do the right thing and haven't taken on any fights that I think would displease Him.
"But only a few days ago... I broke in battle. I had companions depending on me and I turned and ran. They tell me it may have been some dark madness placed upon me by evil magic... I hope if that is the case, that praying may lift such a curse from me.
"And if I broke simply because my courage failed, I pray that God will give me strength in future.
"I haven't necessarily been the best Son my Father in Heaven might want. And I can't make any promises - I'm not putting on sackcloth and ashes and embracing a life of celibacy or anything like that.
"But I'm seeking God's help - because if I break in battle, I put the lives of others at risk. My own life - I'd like to keep that too, but if I fall I could... I almost said live with that..." a slight chuckle. "Honestly, I worry about failing others.
"And... I'm also worried that... we found treasures, Father, and it's my duty to see them handed over to the King for his disposition, and I will do my duty. But it may anger some good people who, with some justification, feel they earned that treasure. And frankly, I want my own share of it as well. I've got a crippled father, a loving mother, and too many sisters to support back home."