Re: Worst Nightmare: The Gate Opens ((Thunder Walker))
Moses stops and looks down at the girl in his arms.
"NO", he replies, more forcefully than he intended and he softens his voice as she startles.
"No, you are not dishonorable. And you are not weak. Sometimes, the Lord puts us in difficult situations to test us. And you have won every test, Screaming Rabbit. You have escaped your tormentors. You have pacified the blood feud between the Pawnee and the Lakota, at least for now. You have faced Raven and he was the one to tuck tail and run.
You are the Lord's most favored sheep. When your time comes, you will add your soul to the scales of the Reckoning. And it will add tremendous weight to the forces of Good."
He takes a few more steps into the direction of Abigail's voice.
"I, Moses, have been tested before, too. When the white man still owned men... and women and children. I fled. I killed my tormentor and I fled."
He keeps walking, slowly, but steadily.
"Thou Shalt Not Kill, sayeth the Lord. I knew that, but I did it. And I ran. Ran as fast as my feet carried me. They sent the dogs after me. They sent men with horses and rifles and pistols after me. And I ran, and I hid until I could run and hide no more."
More steps now, and he evades a gracestone, then another to return to his original path.
"I had a wife, Abigail. And I promised I would return and get her. Get her and the baby. I did not. I failed my wife. I failed my unborn child. I ran into the desert. So thirsty. So hungry. There was this cave. I crawled into the space between the rocks and I was crying.
That was when the Lord lifted me up. I do not remember what he said. But I found a small passage leading deeper into the cave. I crawled through the darkness until I saw light again. And Moses came out on the other side, the Lord's prophet, tool and servant."
He stops, cocking his head as he listens for his lost wife, then calls out:
"I wanted to come back, Abby. But I couldn't. If they had found me, they would have dragged me back to the plantation. They would have killed you, or done worse, right before my eyes. And then they would've killed me, and left our bodies out in the sun, as a warning to the others.
I would've died for you, Abby, and gladly. But I could not bear the thought to see you suffer."
He lifts Screaming Rabbit a bit higher and stretches his arms out.
"I, truly, deserve your pain and anger. But this girl does not. Will you help mend her wounds, Abigail? I know you can. You do not need to forgive me to help her."