After the Battle
"I've offered to Lend her more energy on a couple occasions. I did so while she was healing Dilandua -- that was the spell that went wrong.
"And that's the other side of my ability -- if a spell goes the least bit wrong, it goes really wrong. Usually that just hurts me, but I've known for a while that's probably how I'll die -- either hurting me enough to kill, or something really improbable like accidentally summoning a demon. And a couple times, it's had some negative effect on someone else near me. I'm not sure exactly what happened with Alice that first time, that one was new to me.
"Surprisingly, the Guild doesn't have a lot of good information on that kind of spell failure, I suppose because for most mages a spell failure just costs them a little energy and the time to recast.
"You may have seen me running through spell gestures and muttering the incantations under my breath before casting -- I do that to reduce the chance of miscasting, and it still happens sometimes; I think that's just inherent in magic. It takes a little extra time, but I'm not really a combat mage -- I'm a research apprentice. Right now, I'm maintaining a spell that will let me go back the way I came, that I learned to keep from getting lost in the library stacks at the Guild; just in case, it'll let me get back to where we left the road instead of being lost in the woods (assuming I can do it before I can't stay awake any longer -- and I know another spell that should let me remember that path for longer, if needed). Literally the only spell I know that has any combat use is the one I used to burn those bodies.
"Now, I can make a bigger fire than most mages are willing to do in combat; I can completely spend myself and get all the energy back immediately, and of course like any Fire caster, I can leave holes in the fire so a big fire doesn't engulf things or people I don't want burned -- but I haven't learned any other combat spells like Fireball, Lightning, Ice Dagger, and so forth. The Guild usually only teaches those in Third Year and after -- cuts down on the injury rate when the Uppers torture the Plebes.
"In three more years, I had expected to be a Journeyman." The tall thin mage shakes his head...