The Haunting of the Rose � Chapter 7, Momento Mori
Willa's psyche boiled down to five main aspects: compassion, loyalty, curiosity, justice and innocence. Though it felt like the last of those had been slipping away more and more recently. Right now, however, she was focused on justice. Bad things needed to be shown that what they did was bad! Stealing back the dragon souls from it did not feel like a just punishment to her. That was putting things right, but it was not a punishment for a bad deed done. No, this new big bad needed to be shown what it was to be on the receiving end of the horror it had wrought. But how?
Willa frowned in thought.
This wouldn't be the first time she'd literally fought something without physically fighting it. Though she didn't understand how or why, it seemed that somehow, sometimes something small can beat something far bigger. But how could being bigger not always mean being better?
It was an odd concept for her to wrap her mind around. Bigger things had bigger power. Stood to reason. There had been enough things bigger than her in her life that had always shown her such! It was just a matter of size. Something small could never be as dangerous as something big. A pigeon was not a threat, but a Roc? Odd name by the way. Why call a giant bird a rock? They were very different. Couldn't be more so. Willa caught herself before she wandered off a tangeant. Her mind was trying to tell her something, she just needed to wade through the mire of her own thoughts to find out what! She didn't have time for distractions. Time was short. Perhaps shorter even than her. Another strange phrase, how could time be short? It didn't really have size. It just was. Like the sky. No one ever accused that of being short. At least not to her knowledge...
Regardless, the matter of the fact was that being big meant bigger muscles, thicker skin, bigger power, etc. Like, if you took something small and made it the size of a mountain maybe now it could now destroy a building, whereas before it could only detroy aaaa...she struggled for a comparison...a cracker? That'll do. They tended to be small and easily broken. So, in conclusion, being bigger means everything is bigger. Good. That seemed like the first part of what her brain was trying to tell her. But then, she already knew that...didn't she?
Now where to? Oh, right, her other 'fight'. In it she had supposedly beaten something nasty and to all accounts quite big with a few choice words. Or perhaps more importantly, a few small words. That sounded wrong. Why and how? Willa didn't think she could be defeated so easily. Well, unless those words ended in a fireball or some such being thrown her way. But words could her hurt. She knew that all too well. Some words more than others. Vermin and Vampire were particularly bad ones. Which was odd because they were actually acceptable speech, whereas some others that were not were far less hurtful and even fun. Oddly, those ones that were not could even make you feel better! Like those times she and Gyr had said so many of them to each other! She made a mental note to say more to him when she saw him next...
So yes, Willa understood that sometimes some words could 'cut' pretty bad. But cutting was not killing. She'd certainly never died from words herself! At least not that she could remember. Another life, maybe? That was a whole nother thing. At least she could say that she'd survived all of the injuries that words had dealt her so far. Also, she couldn't remember actually ever having seen anyone die from words either. Other than the nasty. Not that she knew for sure that her words did in fact kill it but, at the minimum, they got rid of it for a long time.
Oh! A long time! Like a short time, but more. So short time did make sense after all! More sense than when she was scrutinising it before anyway. She shouldn't really have doubted. The phrase was made by bigger and smarter people than her.
And that was another thing about being bigger! Surely bigger things must be smarter too. They have bigger brains! Like an umbrean pool. More umbreans means more thoughts! Though Mr Phelan was small, not an umbrean and smarter still...He was a problem in her logic...ugh she didn't want to think about him now! If she thought about him she felt he'd completely invalidate the point she was trying to tell herself! Oh, but Mr Phelan was very old! Maybe that was it? All of the tutors at the academy were old too. Being old must also lead to being smart. Imagine a giant, ancient Mr Phelan - he would be the smartest person of all time, ever! That was something Willa wanted to see!
But wait...being older also made things better too? Well no. That didn't sound right. Very old people were not very strong people. Quite the opposite. But what if...what if old age was not a thing? What if you lived forever? Would you continually get stronger and stronger then? If so why? She thought about the most obvious example: training. The more you did something the better you got at it. So, back to what she thought before: it was that accomplushment thing. Experience! Hold on brain - Willa was getting closer!
So, time to recap. Making small things bigger makes them bigger, in all ways. It is a matter of scale. Age also makes them stronger, if they are not worn down or broken by it. But how does that help her here? It just serves to make her even more worried about what they were about to face! It sounded more massive and more older than she could imagine! Damned mind! Betraying her like that! She thought she was onto something for a mo...no that's wrong. Like that old tutor with the weird numbers and symbols that had confused her lots back at the academy used to say to his students, she'd 'forgotten to carry the one'. She'd made a mistake somewhere...She ran over her thoughts again and after a moment it hit her: experience didn't equal age! Look how young she was, but she felt sure she had experienced more in the last few months than many. Sure they might be smarter than her overall, but that was due to prior learning. If she kept going at her quick rate and them at a slower one, didn't matter how old they were, given enough time she could catch up!
Hooray!
But why exactly did that mean she was able to beat the big nasty from before with just words?
If being bigger is a matter of scaling everything up, then did that mean it also scaled up the bad things too? For example, if words could cut painfully, would scaling the victim up, cause more damage? Perhaps but it didn't feel all that likely, unless...Willa had experienced A LOT of painful words in her short life. Time and time again. Over and over. To the point where she barely noticed them now. Her experiences had made her stronger against them. So when she fought the nasty before and beat it with sympathetic words, was it because of those two things? It had both never been pitied before and the impact it felt from those words were all the more effective because of its huge size? It made sense! At least to her.
If so, how could she utilise that here, unless...
Willa could - and would - never claim she understood anything about the universe, let alone its fundamental laws, so she couldn't say for certain that her logic was in any way sound, but doubting it would lead to her literally second guessing everything! No, she needed to rely on her own experiences and hope that they too would become better when scaled up. Trust that this could work.
"Willa think," she suddenly spoke up after her silence, "Willa think we should feed Zor-axe-and-two to Consumer."
As usual, Willa choice of words left a lot to be desired, causing more confusion than consensus. But after a little time explaining what she meant, it boiled down to this:
Willa had, finally, theorised that it might be possible to harm something that was - to all ends and purposes - invulnerable, from within by having it experience something it had never had to deal with before. At least not to any significant level. It simply wouldn't have had the 'training' to be able to deal with it. And thus would be vulnerable to it. Just like her last fight that was vulnerable to being pitied, so might this new threat be similarly vulnerable. Only this time she wanted it to be something it would not like to experience. She wanted to punish this thing for all the hurt it had caused.
Out of her, Ruuk and Xoraxanto, there were three options and she didn't know enough about Ruuk's life to know what he brought to the table other than, perhaps, confusion from being swapped into this world. She felt bad about this and promised to ask him more about his life once they were done here. She, herself, felt she could best bring fear to the table. She'd lived so much of her life running and hiding before she started to master her fear. It was a huge part of her. Though these days she uses it more than she suffers from it, incorporating it into some of her spells and abilities. But fear is not so much of a punishment. It is a survival instinct. A symptom. You fear the thing that could happen to you, not fear itself. It was what fear warned you about that was the true punishment. Such as pain. And Xoraxanto had that in spades.
She wasn't sure how to weaponise the aeons of pain that Xoraxanto had suffered exactly, but was hoping someone else might have an idea. It seemed a lot more difficult than a few simply spoken words. But if it could be directed so, then it might, maybe, could possibly work? Perhaps?