Re: Chapter 1
In reply to Uldaf Asbjorn (msg # 541):
If Titus's misstep was not obvious to him immediately, Uldaf's ashen expression would serve to rapidly alert him.
Lost? Lost. You know nothing of loss.
I didn't lose my family. I was not a bystander to a massacre. I was the judge, I was the jury, and I was the instrument of execution.
How can you begin to fathom the weight of being responsible for the massacre of everyone you ever knew and loved?
Uldaf collapses in a heap of emotion before regaining his composure, his legs crossed with his staff laying atop them.
My story begins some 70 years ago in the mountains east of Losthelm. My clan had lived in the mountains at peace with nature for untold generations. Life was simple, and we strove to maintain the natural order at all costs- Hunting only when necessary, making use of all parts of the animal for clothing, food, and shelter. Fish were abundant, and feasts around our fire were the stuff of Belarian legend.
My people had no use for the dream, or for the trappings of imperial politics. "No gods or kings- only men". We worshipped the land, and revered the wolf.
When I grew older, I took a wife, Lyandra.
Uldaf's eyes glaze as he pauses, his hands involuntarily cupping a long since passed face.
Lyandra was the most beautiful woman I'd ever seen, and the fiercest fighter I'd ever met before I met our friend Enrei. Taller than me by half a head, hands soft enough to weave silk, and strong enough to bend steel. She was my moon and my stars, my pack mate and my lover.
In time, our love grew into a family. When my first son, Balareus was born, and the line of succession clear, Lyandra and I were raised to Chieftains. For a time, life was perfection. But to all good things, an end.
The white wolf was the symbol of our clan, and had been considered a symbol of good omens amongst my forebearers for generations. But fate has a way of challenging your beliefs, and ripping them asunder.
I still remember it like yesterday. The day the river ran red.
It started like any other morning, fishing for the day's breakfast. It had been an unusually long hunt, and the normally abundant fish were nowhere to be seen. As my suspicion grew, small chunks of viscera began to wash downstream and onto the shore. The crimson reckoning continued, and pieces of wolf, goat, sheep, mammoth..they all flowed down the river that day. To this day, the ground is still stained red with their blood.
For days, the butchering and exsanguination of the woods continued, but we could find no evidence of the culprit. For the first time, our people knew hunger, and they knew fear.
When our bellies were their loudest, he finally showed himself. The devil in wolf's clothing. The large white wolf sauntered into the camp, announcing his presence with a mighty howl. At first, we were relieved. Finally, a sign we had not been forsaken. The wolf walked among us, nuzzling the children and showing deference to Lyandra and I.
How foolish we were.
The wolf led us up the mountain, all the way to the river's source. I'm not sure my words can accurately describe what we saw. Body upon body of mangled animals lay across the mighty river's mountain source. Finally, our hemophilic artist had been revealed.
Having not seen food for weeks, my people had no choice. They feasted along with our white furred savior. You cannot imagine the site of 50 people and a 200 pound wolf stained red from blood and water, and I would not ask you to. When the wolf and my people emerged, we were no longer the clan of the white wolf. They were the clan of the red.
I ..could not..did not partake. My belly knew hunger, but the old ways were strong in me. We did not kill for sport or gluttony, and we did not delight in death. But my people, not even my wife would hear me. Something had changed in them, and a frenzy grew.
Over the next few weeks, the mountains were culled of all life. Corpses covered trails, laid unskinned, and my people grew fat. And every night the red wolf walked among them, the leader of a lost pack.
In time my strength faded from hunger, and I thought I could resist no more. Lyandra no longer lied with me, and Balareus no longer called me father. I was cast out from the only life and love I'd ever known.
My mourning and wallowing was short lived. They began hunting me at dawn.
They chased me up the mountain, hoping that the cold would finish the job their spears, and perhaps their hearts, could not. I stumbled deliriously toward the mountain's summit, collapsing in the snow. The night drew dark, and the icy grip of pneumonia took hold. My last thought was of Lyandra and Balareus.
I awoke in a cavern, shivering and covered in frostbite. My body was pink from lying next to a fire. The air smelled of roasted fish, and in the shadows, I could see only the outline of the largest bear I have ever seen.
Uldaf. The balance has been broken. The land weeps as the white wolves run red. You must restore the order. You must become the bear.
Sensing Titus's skepticism, Uldaf turns toward the troubadour
I don't have your gift for narration, but yes, the bear spoke to me.. still speaks to me. It nursed me back to health, protected me from the red wolf, and taught me the ways of the bear. In time I awoke from my hibernation. The bear had been born, and he was hungry.
Ugh. I cannot..will not relive this part of the story. It hurts too much. I don't know if I can..
SAY IT ULDAF
I killed them. I killed them all.
Tears well visibly in Uldaf's eyes.
I will indulge no detail or description here. No man should have to describe or take part in the death of his son.
I could no longer face the sight of myself after all the bloodshed. I headed back to the cave where the bear had spoken to me, and I lived in exile from the world for almost 30 long years.
That was before the bear spoke to me again. That was before he told me to find all of you.
All I want to know Hannah is why.. Why me? Why have I been made to suffer so, and when will my suffering have been enough?
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