Juniper's Boat
"I know you would never do anything to hurt me." She sat down on the couch and patted the spot next to her. "I've not had a lot of luck in relationships, although I did really think Larrigan and I would make it." She sighed. "I've put Mama and Papa through a lot, I can understand why he's ready to throw in the towel and arrange something.
The first guy, Alexander, the one who made me realize I wanted more than just being an out of control kid who loved to explore, my first kiss, when there was a second danger in the village, he told me I wasn't worth fighting for. Mama, Aunt Lia and Haroth all heard him and took him on, but it didn't do anything to minimize the pain his words caused.
Then there was Max, who we never even really began when Andy murdered him in front of me when he kidnapped me. Papa had been injured then and I didn't want to be a burden on anyone so I hid myself in my flat over the schoolhouse. My kids did the marketing and what not. The only person who knew was Difyr and I asked her to keep her silence. Hiding, another thing that did nothing to ease my pain or bring me much needed support. Instead I left myself open to nights filled with nightmares, flashbacks and moments of intense fear when encountering a man I don't know, to the point that I simply freeze and black out.
A year later, Larrigan arrived with a gift from Haroth and he found a way in."