The Keep - Dormitory - Sileas's Room.   Posted by Threadmaster.Group: 0
Sileas Spenser
 player, 300 posts
Wed 27 Sep 2017
at 03:39
The Keep - Sileas's Room
"Larrigan was the one who broke down my walls. Remember, if the raid hadn't happened, I would be marrying him right now. But he was patient, he didn't push, he made me laugh and he played me music. This is about Pinja, yeah? Her situation was a lot different. She went through years of ongoing abuse from someone she should have been able to trust and feel safe around. I never trusted or loved Andy, and thanks to your father and Uncle Aron, Andy only had me for less than a week. I also longed for someone to love and take care of me." She didn't mention that she believed herself to have been stronger than Pinja.
Lek Gerthrim
 Player, 485 posts
Wed 27 Sep 2017
at 03:49
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Lek reached into his pocket and took out the sapphire he had offered to Pinja, only to have it be rejected. He fidgeted with it.

"I want to marry her but I don't expect that now, not for a very long time, if ever... Now I just want to be her friend. But she's so afraid of me, I can't even be in the same room as her without her being afraid. I'd do anything for her but I don't know what I can do. I want to help her." Lek willed himself not to cry, he couldn't go to the feast with a tear stained face, it wasn't manly and he was training to become a knight.

"I love her, I've liked her for a long time... Was going to ask about courting her but I knew she had been hurt so I was waiting for her to trust me more, she wasn't afraid of me then but I didn't think the time was right yet... Then the raid happened and they hurt her worse and I wasn't there to protect her. I don't deserve her."

This message was last edited by the player at 04:02, Wed 27 Sept 2017.

Sileas Spenser
 player, 301 posts
Wed 27 Sep 2017
at 14:10
The Keep - Sileas's Room
"Oh, Lek. Of course you deserve her. Just like I know Larrigan couldn't be there to protect me, Pinja doesn't hold you accountable for what happened. My only advice is to not push. Extend friendship but nothing else. I honestly don't know if she will ever be in a position to fall in love again, but someday she may be able to be in the room with you and not be afraid. Right now, she's not even very trusting of very man women. Pinja has a long, difficult road. Jack hurt her in so many ways."
Lek Gerthrim
 Player, 486 posts
Wed 27 Sep 2017
at 20:53
The Keep - Sileas's Room
"I would, but I don't know how I can if I can't even talk to her." Lek said sadly. "All I can do is ask Millie how she is doing. I would ask Millie to send word to her, say hello for me and whatnot... But I'm afraid even that would scare her."
Sileas Spenser
 player, 302 posts
Wed 27 Sep 2017
at 21:02
The Keep - Sileas's Room
"As I said, don't rush it. If you are doing something for Millie, and Pinja is there, just ask if she needs anything." Sileas pondered. "Give her a few more weeks and then have Millie say hello for you, but nothing else." She studied her cousin. "Just don't get your hopes up."
Lek Gerthrim
 Player, 487 posts
Wed 27 Sep 2017
at 21:09
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"Pinja is never there when I'm doing things for Millie." Lek said. "I don't go in Millie's room, I wait in the hall."
Sileas Spenser
 player, 303 posts
Wed 27 Sep 2017
at 21:20
The Keep - Sileas's Room
"You could poke your head in the door, but no further. In  a few more weeks."
Lek Gerthrim
 Player, 488 posts
Wed 27 Sep 2017
at 21:21
The Keep - Sileas's Room
"I promised to stay in the hall the last time I spoke to her." Lek said. "If I go sticking my head in the door..."
Sileas Spenser
 player, 304 posts
Wed 27 Sep 2017
at 22:09
The Keep - Sileas's Room
"You could be right, Lek. Honestly, I don't know that she will ever be ready. Are you sure you wouldn't be happy befriending her and finding someone...receptive?" Sileas inquired.
Lek Gerthrim
 Player, 489 posts
Wed 27 Sep 2017
at 22:13
The Keep - Sileas's Room
"I'd be happy just to be her friend." Lek said. "She's just so afraid of me I can't even talk to her... I care about her."

This message was last edited by the player at 22:17, Wed 27 Sept 2017.

Sileas Spenser
 player, 305 posts
Wed 27 Sep 2017
at 22:20
The Keep - Sileas's Room
"I know you do. Hopefully, with time, she will go stronger and manage to be a bit more open to friendship."
Lek Gerthrim
 Player, 490 posts
Wed 27 Sep 2017
at 22:25
The Keep - Sileas's Room
Lek sighed. It all felt impossible.
Sileas Spenser
 player, 306 posts
Wed 27 Sep 2017
at 22:27
The Keep - Sileas's Room
Sileas gently squeezed his shoulders, then looked over her shoulder. "Oscar? Are you ready to go?"
Oscar the Knife
 NPC, 155 posts
 Pickpocket Oscar
 Pancake Oscar
Wed 27 Sep 2017
at 22:29
The Keep - Sileas's Room
"Yes! Struth! I'm gonna eat lots!" Oscar said excitedly.
Sileas Spenser
 player, 307 posts
Wed 27 Sep 2017
at 22:31
The Keep - Sileas's Room
Sileas laughed. "Best behavior though, right?"
Oscar the Knife
 NPC, 156 posts
 Pickpocket Oscar
 Pancake Oscar
Wed 27 Sep 2017
at 22:46
The Keep - Sileas's Room
Oscar bristled. "I'm bloody well right good enough."
Sileas Spenser
 player, 308 posts
Wed 27 Sep 2017
at 22:53
The Keep - Sileas's Room
"I know you are, I know you are," Sileas agreed.
Oscar the Knife
 NPC, 157 posts
 Pickpocket Oscar
 Pancake Oscar
Wed 27 Sep 2017
at 22:55
The Keep - Sileas's Room
Oscar angrily strode out of the room.
Sileas Spenser
 player, 309 posts
Wed 27 Sep 2017
at 23:07
The Keep - Sileas's Room
Sileas sighed. "Headstrong, that one."
Questa Cort
 Player, 405 posts
Wed 27 Sep 2017
at 23:08
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"Seems normal ter me." Questa said.
Sileas Spenser
 player, 310 posts
Wed 27 Sep 2017
at 23:11
The Keep - Sileas's Room
"It would. It's fine for a normal day, I simply didn't want him wandering over stealing food tonight."
Yehudit Buckley
 Player, 796 posts
Thu 28 Sep 2017
at 00:11
The Keep - Sileas's Room
Yehudit was still sitting in her corner, showing no signs of leaving.
Lek Gerthrim
 Player, 491 posts
Thu 28 Sep 2017
at 00:12
The Keep - Sileas's Room
"How is she today?" Lek asked Millie. He asked his sister this often enough for her to know very well that 'she' was Pinja.
Millicent Gerthrim
 NPC, 65 posts
Thu 28 Sep 2017
at 00:39
The Keep - Sileas's Room
"She's a little stronger but still having trouble keeping anything down," Millie said quietly.
Lek Gerthrim
 Player, 492 posts
Thu 28 Sep 2017
at 01:06
The Keep - Sileas's Room
"Is there anything I can do for her?" Lek asked. "Anything I can get her? When I'm away there will be all sorts of things I can buy her."

As Wulfsen's page, Lek would be accompanying Wulfsen.