Seraphina Martel
I sit on the bed, wrapped in a towel, with another for my hair. With locks this long, shining, and glorious, I need a long time to dry them out. I return text messages and marvel at the convenience of having a phone at all. It was something my parents forbade for most of my life; a corrupting influence, they said, not morally, but motivationally. They were probably right, as much as I hate to admit it.
Dad didn't spell my name correctly. I wonder why. He's usually such a perfectionist.
St. George's is not what I expected. There is a lot of duplicity here, especially among the faculty and staff. They've made a kind of hothouse environment to mess with our heads and announce rules out of the blue, then blame us for not asking about them beforehand. I'm starting to think they're making up the rules as they go, to mess with us. E.g., officially, we're not allowed to leave campus without permission, like we're children, unless you're a 'gopher,' which is theoretically a glorified fetch hound, but the way the school treats them, they're more like privileged smugglers. There are also monitors, supposedly to make sure none of the students bully each other too much like happens in most schools.
I start to feel like I'm writing Dad a novel. I get out the USB cord to attach my phone to my computer so I can use the keyboard instead of the phone pad.
I volunteered to be a monitor for my class, because they were offering private rooms. The quality of the rooms is much lower than everyone else's, though, like an apartment for the working poor. There was strange mold in the sink, for example. The gophers also got private rooms, even though, officially, they were supposed to share; since our gophers are opposite sexes, they were assigned different rooms. That's the sort of thing I'm talking about, introducing or changing rules at the last second.
More troubling, the school holds monitors accountable for all of the infractions of every other student in our class. If we don't catch them breaking the rules, it's our fault, and furthermore, if we accuse someone of breaking the rules and can't prove they were doing so to the faculty's satisfaction, then we suffer the punishment they would have. It's ripe for abuse.
I don't want to type this twice, so I attach Mom as a recipient and add their names to the beginning, as a form of address.
Honestly, it's just like you always told me. The world away from home is full of evil people and ruled by them, wicked little anklebiters who can only hold onto power through social manipulation. Parasites and fools who would rather tear down the exceptional than build up the inferior.
I've made a couple of actual friends, Ahina and Saul, though, which is new, and so it's not all bad. And there's a queso fountain in the cafeteria, so I'm not complaining about the food. There's a club here, the Dragons, who do charity work or something like that. Ahina claims they're also real heroes, but they keep their activities secret. I'm not sure about that. Mom, Dad, you always taught me to be forthright and direct, that deceit was for lesser people who didn't have the strength, inner or outer, to overcome their own problems and face the world with conviction.
You're both proving to be more correct, about everything, than I ever expected. I know I didn't always show you the affection I should have, and I'm sorry for that, because I'm starting to realize that you weren't harsh or controlling, like I used to sometimes think. You were preparing me, training me, and cultivating me, carefully and with measured forethought, to be strong and brave. Thank you, Mom, Dad. I miss you and I love you.
I pull away from the computer and wipe my eyes. When did I start misting up? I don't remember the last time I cried, and I also don't remember the last time I actively wanted to hug my parents.
Am I just homesick?
I attach my schedule to the message to my parents, then I detach my phone from the computer to respond to Paula:
I think I'll be fine. I'm souring on the faculty already, but I've made more friends in three days than the rest of my life put together. And there's a queso fountain!
I really like spicy queso. I must limit myself to once a day so that I don't get sick of it.
I'll be booked for classes until 4:30 on Wednesdays. If the ESL and economics is after that, I'd be up for it. I don't have any plans Saturday or Sunday, so I'm good to come to the meeting. Collections is probably fine, too, but what exactly is 'collections?'
And then to George:
Sure. I'll be ready at 5:30. Do we need permission from the school to go into town on Friday afternoons?
He may proceed to feel blessed to be going out with such a beautiful, rich, powerful girl. Anyone should, really. I feel smug about that.
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