Day Zero: Jahangir Chen.   Posted by The Blight.Group: 0
The Blight
 GM, 44 posts
 I am nothingness.
Sun 20 Oct 2019
at 22:18
Day Zero: Jahangir Chen
You have long since struggled with your mental illness but a recent YouTube video lead you to a Doctor who has a long standing relationship with curing mental illness. He doesn't use the more traditional techniques and after watching a few of his videos you thought Maybe this can work.

It's a strange idea believing in someone from the internet but at the same time you know this might be your only chance at resolving your problems. The doctor plans to give a public speech in the city at one of the biggest libraries in the area. He invites anyone and everyone to come and talk about his philosophies.

You immediately sign up and your on your way to this speech.

OOC: What is this Doctors name? Why do you feel comfortable with him.
Jahangir Chen
 player, 2 posts
Mon 21 Oct 2019
at 19:36
Day Zero: Jahangir Chen
There were certain rituals that he used to measure his well-being. Like the hunger stones that appeared in times of drought, a break in the routine was a sign that he was slipping. He kept his home immaculately neat and tidy, exacting but not obsessive. Not at all a dandy, he still kept himself well groomed, though with little interest in fashion. He worked part-time jobs just to make sure he had an obligation to meet people outside of academic circles.

Even when he held it all at bay, the amount of effort required to maintain that stability made the absence of the madness as heavy a burden. He wasn't at all sure what normal was like, yet he yearned to give it a try.

Doctor Leyland Wright had a warm, avuncular character, scholarly without being pedantic or condescending. Jahangir wasn't sure what he trusted him, not that he could detect any tell-tale buzzwords that hinted at religion, tepid modern philosophies or paranoid schizophrenia. The good Doctor seemed to believe that the mind was far more elastic and resilient than anyone credited. It was something he felt that he could believe, and Doctor Wright had credentials as a neuroscientist and psychologist.
The Blight
 GM, 46 posts
 I am nothingness.
Tue 22 Oct 2019
at 11:03
Day Zero: Jahangir Chen
On the way to the speech you double check and triple check everything in your apartment before leaving. Something in the back of your mind tugs at you but you assume that you are likely off routine which is going to prompt some emotional responses.

Still you manage to trudge on, on your way out to your car you run into an older gentleman who drops some of his groceries before apologizing profusely.

"Always in a hurry. I am sorry sir. I did not see you."

The slender looking black man stares up at you and you help him pick up some of his groceries before you start walking away.

Behind you, you hear the man say, "You know some appointments have dead ends."

You turn to look behind you but and the man is just standing there.
Jahangir Chen
 player, 3 posts
Thu 24 Oct 2019
at 20:21
Day Zero: Jahangir Chen
Jahangir shook his head. "Not at all, my fault entirely." It was sincere, he had a deep reverence for his elders, it was how he and every one of his ancestors had been raised. And it was true, after all, the one still blessed with the alertness and agility of youth should look out for those who had lost theirs.

He was quietly thankful that there was nothing broken. As he walked away, he heard the words. Turning back, he held up his palms and shrugged slightly. "I know, sir. Still, better to try than to be idle. Thanks. I'll try not to get my hopes up." He gave a respectful nod and turned on his heel, walking away to continue on his route.
The Blight
 GM, 54 posts
 I am nothingness.
Fri 25 Oct 2019
at 19:21
Day Zero: Jahangir Chen
Continuing on your way back to previous appointment you turn to immediately make your way not waiting to miss anything. Your brain spins trying to think of the many different things you would want to say to the good doctor.

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OOC: What matter do you use to make it to the event?
Jahangir Chen
 player, 4 posts
Fri 25 Oct 2019
at 23:32
Day Zero: Jahangir Chen
Jahangir had more than enough questions. He didn't want to just find answers, he wanted to be able to justify his belief to his cynicism. His internal Diogenes was working flat out to make sure he was skeptical of his shot at salvation. Calling a cab, he sat quietly, musing, during the ride.
The Blight
 GM, 59 posts
 I am nothingness.
Tue 29 Oct 2019
at 00:05
Day Zero: Jahangir Chen
Calling the cab you quickly find someone who will take you to the event. The cab does very little in the way of talking while you are in the cab. Inside of the cab you quickly determine that the man driving you is of middle eastern decent.

When you finally arrive to the event and you find yourself in a sea of people. People are everywhere walking around for this event and many are wearing clothing and other things. You can see there are tons of fans.
Jahangir Chen
 player, 5 posts
Sat 2 Nov 2019
at 23:40
Day Zero: Jahangir Chen
He didn't think of himself as a fan. Strong feelings towards other people were something he instinctively avoided. It was the work that held his attention, for which he would permit himself to feel something almost like passion. He wanted a lecturer, not a guru. No point in gaining stability if it meant leaning on someone else. He wanted to learn how to find his own self-mastery.

The throng of people was troubling. Jahangir was very sensitive to the clamour of so many voices, a pandemonium of pressure waves making the air and his ears quiver. He was cursed with a keen sense of smell, plunged into the chaotic scentscape of so many bodies, so many fabrics and chemicals, surging to and fro with the sweep of the air currents, changing steadily. So many people pressed into one place had the hackles rising on his neck, his mouth going dry, heart fluttering.
The Blight
 GM, 66 posts
 I am nothingness.
Fri 8 Nov 2019
at 02:45
Day Zero: Jahangir Chen
The stage in front of the event is set and Jahangir Chen's seat was in the very middle of the stage which gives a great view of the presenter. There are a few people who comes out and do checks while you sit but you don't notice anything unusual.

A man sits next to you and he takes out a small pen and pad while getting ready.

"Exciting isn't it?" He says to you, "I love these types of events."
Jahangir Chen
 player, 6 posts
Sun 10 Nov 2019
at 02:10
Day Zero: Jahangir Chen
People could be unsettling, certainly, yet boundlessly fascinating. He was nothing if not compassionate, the existential rabbitholes that opened up when one considered each and every person as a unique event. He offered a faint smile, cocking his head slightly. "What types of events do you mean?" The question was posed with sincere curiosity.
The Blight
 GM, 77 posts
 I am nothingness.
Thu 14 Nov 2019
at 01:35
Day Zero: Jahangir Chen
"The types of events where people are unraveled and looked at in a much different way than most. We are all onions looking to be unraveled by someone who has much more experience than the rest of us."

The man sits up and smiles at the front of the stage as people begin doing a dance with speaker and microphones setting up for the speaker to come out. You had barely noticed that many of the seats behind you are already filled.

There is a stand at the front door which you missed that has a number of books and other merchandise which makes you sick to your stomach but people have to make a living.
Jahangir Chen
 player, 7 posts
Sun 24 Nov 2019
at 18:28
Day Zero: Jahangir Chen
He considered what the man said, not sure if it was genuinely profound or just nonsense posing as profundity. Looking ahead, he saw the dancing and felt a sense of foreboding. The prospect of singing and dancing tortured his somewhat curmudgeonly soul. All that got him there was the hope that he might find some genuine answers. "You can't get ignorance back once you lose it."
The Blight
 GM, 83 posts
 I am nothingness.
Mon 25 Nov 2019
at 20:30
Day Zero: Jahangir Chen
The event starts and one of the announcers come on the stage as people are still pouring in. The man taps the microphone and does a sound check before starting speaking.

"Welcome to this assembly of the minds. We will be another five or ten minutes and then we can get started. Thank you for your patience."
Jahangir Chen
 player, 8 posts
Sun 1 Dec 2019
at 20:48
Day Zero: Jahangir Chen
He was impatient, he usually was, though he had learned to master his emotions in his youth. Emotions were born of primitive instincts, hardly the best way to make decisions. "I take it that this is not your first event, then? Are you familiar with the doctor's works?"
The Blight
 GM, 95 posts
 I am nothingness.
Thu 5 Dec 2019
at 14:43
Day Zero: Jahangir Chen
"No, not my first event at all. You need to be very careful. This speaker can invoke certain things out of you and I can see you all ready marked. It might even be wise to skip this completely."

The man looks at you and you try to decide his expression but figure out quickly he is not joking.
Jahangir Chen
 player, 9 posts
Sat 7 Dec 2019
at 16:52
Day Zero: Jahangir Chen
Jahangir had been raised to respect what others had to say, especially his elders. He was a thoughtful boy, too much so at times, and had grown into a thoughtful young man. "I am here that I might find what it is inside of me." It was spoken as an explanation, not a challenge, with a plaintive note. He did not deliberately wall himself off from all his feelings and instincts.
The Blight
 GM, 99 posts
 I am nothingness.
Mon 9 Dec 2019
at 01:03
Day Zero: Jahangir Chen
The lights dim as the center of the stage is lit by a spot light. That light shines on the professor that you came to see. The man walks between two curtains on the stage towards the microphone.

The man grabs the podium that was setup for him.

"Welcome one and all. Today you are here to learn. You are here to be amazed and you are here to break free of all your short comings."

The man walks to the front of the stage away from the podium.

"I want everyone in the audience today to break free of their limitations and overcome the things that are holding you back."

People in the audience clap at this mans words.
Jahangir Chen
 player, 10 posts
Sat 14 Dec 2019
at 04:32
Day Zero: Jahangir Chen
Jahangir was not a clapper. He didn't get in on participation, those mandatory rituals that sat so naturally in the psyches of others were alien to him. He couldn't bring himself to type lol in a message or use emojis. For such a young man he could be terribly old fashioned in certain ways but it was nothing he could escape.

He had always been himself. Though he was polite, mild mannered and easygoing, his sense of self was an adamantine fortress. While he might go along with others, he was never persuaded or dissuaded by their words or actions. He built neat logical sequences for his decisions. At least when he could.

His world was the narrow sliver of psychic space between his subconscious and the outside world. Each was a roiling event horizon of raw chaos. He was divorced from his subconscious, every emotion and urge was rigorously surpressed. The outside world came to a mind that was both hypersensitive and thoroughly unhinged. His hallucinations came in a variety of forms, afflicting every sense. Sometimes he was sure that he could see scents, feel the motions of others around him as though he felt the air shifting. There were the night terrors. The delusions.
The Blight
 GM, 104 posts
 I am nothingness.
Mon 16 Dec 2019
at 14:37
Day Zero: Jahangir Chen
During the event you could feel the rooms energy but he didn't not feel motivated by much even when the crowd roared. Claps often busted out during certain key phrases during the speech but otherwise left you empty.

After what seemed like one of the longest nights of your life, the event ends with a few parting words of encouragement. Your not floored by it nor did you really care for some of the self help guru's in the crowd.

Nearing the sea of people you make your way towards the sign where the speaker is sitting on stage taking autographs and signing books. There is a huge wave that floods him and then there is trickle of people and then it's only you and him.
Jahangir Chen
 player, 11 posts
Mon 23 Dec 2019
at 00:45
Day Zero: Jahangir Chen
He understood what the others were feeling. Jahangir wasn't ignorant of emotion, he just instinctively stifled it, walled himself off from it. Yet he was a keen student of the sciences and even modelled his outward persona based on what seemed like the most sensible reactions. He still wasn't good at joining in, though, he didn't fall under the sway with the crowd. Sometimes he wondered how he might have felt had he been at Nuremburg or Gettysburg, if even such events could have stirred him at all.

"Doctor Wright, it's a pleasure to meet you, sir."
He extended a hand, trying to make sense of all the questions he wanted to ask the man. He knew that he only had moments. "Sir, I need help. More than just this."
The Blight
 GM, 112 posts
 I am nothingness.
Fri 27 Dec 2019
at 20:16
Day Zero: Jahangir Chen
The man peers up at Jahangir Chen. He seems somewhat unmoved by the fact that you ask him that question. He lifts his pen from the page and closes the book he was just holding.

"Ah. I see, so not a typical autograph? Why don't you explain what is the problem? Unless you want to treat to me a coffee in about fifteen minutes when this is done. There is a coffee shop around the corner I could meet you at."
Jahangir Chen
 player, 12 posts
Wed 8 Jan 2020
at 19:35
Day Zero: Jahangir Chen
The lack of emotion did not trouble Jahangir. He could hardly fault anyone for being composed and reserved when he was so himself. While emotions were perfectly natural, they were also primitive and crude, dangerous when given free reign. Nodding his head, he wasted no more of the doctor's time than was necessary. "Thank you. I shall meet you there."

Turning on his heel he departed for the coffee shop, knowing which one the doctor had meant. There he chose a seat from which he could be seen by anyone entering and ordered a pot of coffee for himself and his guest to come.