Tea and Talk
"My magic..." She looked out ahead, in thought. It wasn't a question she had ever been asked directly, though it was a topic she often considered herself. Her first thoughts were mostly impulsive, the voices that would accompany her at the end of the day, fueled by anger and exhaustion, promising revenge or power or freedom from the manipulations of her mother and others. Her magic was sometimes merely a weapon or a shield, protecting her and ensuring a future where her decisions would be her own. But those were not the feelings she shared with anyone. There were also her more intimate hopes and dreams for herself and magic played a strong role in that too. But that sort of answer would not do either. As much as Cesia sensed that Alistar was a good man, he was still a stranger, an Escort in service to a noble, albeit a noble with a kind reputation, but also one about to be married into a powerful rival court.
So she reached for a safe answer. "You know, when I was in Delmin, I was taught that magic is a reflection of ourselves, mirroring core parts of our personalities and manifesting them out into the world. My magic was born here in Aengros, from its cold mountains, long winters, unforgiving blizzards, and expectant frost every morning in spring. It echos my land and its people, cold and unyielding but not lacking in strength and beauty too. My magic belongs as much to Aengros as to me and will be used to service my land and my people, to continue to secure their place in Motrerret.”
Cesia paused, knowing that it was the correct answer and true, though not ocmplete. She wasn’t sure why, perhaps it was Alistar’s patient gaze as he listened, but she continued. "My father had a different opinion on the topic. He wasn’t a mage himself, but he was an accomplished historian and a lover of learning." She stopped, lowering herself down on one knee, her skirts gathering around her as she reached her cup-free hand to the ground, splaying her fingers over the gravel path. "He always taught me that our abilities were like roots, and that they had the power to shape us and anchor us to our place." As she lifted her hand, slowly drawing her fingers together as she did so, a tiny ice sculpture of a tree began to form. "If I were lazy with my studies, he said my roots would be shallow, and so would I. But if I dedicated myself to discipline and cultivating my magic, I could explore depths that would allow me to flourish to my fullest potential." The little tree stood no more than a half a foot tall and glistened as she stood again and stepped lightly around it, continuing on their walk. "My father had high hopes for me and for his country. He may not have wielded magic himself, but I think he understood it better than most. I intend to use my magic to be greater than the High Seats before me, and as I rise to greatness, my country will rise with me."